[Trigger warning: mentions of self harm, suicidal thoughts and tendencies. Do not read if it makes you uncomfortable... and dont take it seriously]
and i just want to stop trying
and lay down for a second
lay down what? me
my self and i
and all my scars
and the blood red tissues
oh, the pills,
cant forget the pills...
So i lay down, softly
i dont want to disturb anyone
wait
on one
cares
i just want to rest
for the final peace,
the final destination
i want to reach it
i cant anymore, with you
with all of you and any of you
my life is contemporary
i dont know what it means
i just said it
the cuts are bleeding again
and im sleepy
again
there is pain
somewhere
deep inside
I dont know where
i dont want to know where
i feel it
i dont want to feel it
it makes me feel good though
so i increase it
tear my skin open,
tissue by tissue
and keep going
and dont stop ever
i
keep
going
my nose is runny
i have clean tissues too
but i dont want them
i want you
i hate you
i fucking despise you
and yet my heart cries for you
every
fucking
night
leave me alone now
please leave me alone now
i cant take is anymore
i
just
want
to
lay down
and not wake up
for the final rest
for the final peace
for the final destination
i am done
i will lay down
for a rest
not
the
final
rest
though
i am so sleepy
so i will lay down
just for a while
and close my eyes
to feel myself again
and the pain.. oh the pain
i love it
it
makes
me
stronger
i will wake up too
as i always do
and always keep doing
i raised hell once
and i will do it again
i will do it again and again and again
till my pain
leaves
my
soul
and im sucked dry
by the vampires
so i'll raise a devil
i'll be a devil
and kill them all
all the demons that made me die
and i will
eat
them
up
piece by piece
feed them to my darkness
i will rise again
and flourish in my pain
but for now
i
will
lay
down
just for a while
just to feel myself
for
a
while
i will lay down
breath a piece of peace
I thought of editing it, make it grammatically correct and all
But I wrote it in a desperate moment. So I have kept it the way it
was. The way I was thinking.
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Mellifluent
RandomIn presence of the sun, We share golden redamancy. With warmth of all you, A chrome day, our requited love paints. ------- Come to me, O little hero, marcid in all your glory, melting in hell, yourself taking all in, a heavenly abditory. ========== ...
