Half Girl Poems

13 I was never the one

I was never the one to anyone!

I was never the most important piece in any puzzle!

I was never the chosen one!

I was the knight in the chess

I was the back up plan

I was The option, the B, the C but never the A

I was the leaf but never the tree

I was the thorn but never the petal

I was the maybe friend,

I was never the best friend,

I always ask why I am the second!

I keep Assume and presume that I am the problem

I am not good enough, not qualified nor beautiful to be the chosen one!

I keep going backward and go in disarray to unlock the scenes I didn't see

To understand the mystery

Of why I am the second and never the one!

Try knitting lines of truth I saw in reverse

Trying chiming my blood type from B to A

Thinking maybe that's the reason why I am this Spright

A person tinted with secondary colors

I try to conceal hide and make myself less shown

So new people won't guess I am the second choice girl!

At some point I was loathed to prove or keep seeking

The answers to the inquiries and questions

To why I am B and not A

I decided to stop Lurching to be the chosen

I just had to stop and honor my being

I decided to let go of the ranking and be my Number one

I am the chosen one

I let go of all the people, things, habits and behavior that doesn't fit number one

I left everything in a history class

I was delivered to a new dawn, morning and sunrise

I was repeating the same class for years that passed

To finally understand I was never chosen to myself too! 

we can not express true love towards others if we do not love ourselves first, what's inside always comes out!

so ask yourself what am i experiencing love or attachment!

and then start your journey towards self love and loving others.