22 Titled weak and vulnerable

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A sandcastle built on the beach that's my reflection in the eyes of the wide ocean

So weak and vulnerable each time I lean to one of it's waves, kneels down with every kiss

A sandcastle never knew the deep down ground

Nothing solid to stand on!

Wishes for long summers, calm waves and happy colors as a forever vow!

Change was what the sandcastle was afraid of the most!

Each sunset brings fear's chills

Each night keeps the walls fragile

Each wave reminds the sandcastle of the flying golden grains

Gold grains that shaped its presence, looks and way of being!

A Sandcastle that's so weak and vulnerable to let go of summer in the eyes of its builders!

It's so afraid of never meeting those eyes again!

I am the sandcastle!

So weak and vulnerable each time I got built with others words, praises, love and plans of the future!

Nothing strong inside of me to lean and decide is this what I want!

With each different presence I wear a different color that suits the presence's taste!

Kind, easy, pleasing, caring and let's finish it with loving, titles they gave me

Weak and vulnerable, titles I gave me, a miserable fake lake, full of disappointments and pains

External validation, love and caring is what I thought would take to me to the stairs of the standards

Afraid of unveiling my true special colors

Afraid of the words "who do you think you are"!

At times when I start to Drift away the words "you changed slap my face"

And back to square one, where I toss myself into a shape that suit their space

Daydreaming became my escape, from a deceiving reality,

Trying to grovel from under the doom of a Disgraced house I belong to

Trying to swallow the sour pain that envelopes my mouth

And wipe the bulre in my eyes to fit my reflection in the mirror

Trying to sing harmonical thought to ease the mind

And fix the heart strings to fit the mind's melody in this daydream reality

Connect dots that leads to the soul

And build a home with a solid roof, that's titled a heart that seeks, ways of strong and brave people's lucky lakes! 

And build a home with a solid roof, that's titled a heart that seeks, ways of strong and brave people's lucky lakes! 

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