Half Girl Poems

26 Pain to glory

I always take the mystery away

Always explaining myself

To everyone I see, encounter and love

I want them not to presume I am not good enough

I want them to see me a perfect, clear and an honest one

I want them to not get me wrong,

that's not what I meant I always repeat and sing along

I want to reverse, alter and erase every

not okay thought about me in the head of others

I get scared, anxious, stressed if someone knew my human side i keep hidden inside

I can't make a mistake that might scare them away

I want them to chew words of you are

good, smart and say yes all the time

I Want other people's opinion of me be

clear and doesn't trigger the unease, the fears and tears

I care about other people's opinion of me!

I want to unhide and read their minds

What do they think, I always ask!

I should obey, play and say okay!

Boundaries I never set or showed my Crossroads

Yes, sure, of course a Symphony i composed

Forgetting to choose myself, because the

fear of losing people is deep and smeared

Acting my character is not an option in this parallel world

Because people's opinion of me matters

In the Brisk of wanting to say no, scream and Deluge everyone with hate

I keep the puppy face, of an obedient girl

I let their words of judgment, and harshfull critics find their way to my mind

Let their hate sink deep in my heart

My confidence was buried I don't know where

But when my respect was touched and scratched

The shadow of confidence loomed over my shoulders Putting my head over

It was then when I learned I don't need to care! 

it is then when i learned pain deliver glory!

Shine bright as much as your soul desires to be seen!