When the dog chase after it's tail

Chapter 19

                   Friday February 5, 1846

I don't know how many times I hit the door which remained closed in front of me.

- It's me ! It was me! It's, it's me.

Finally I heard an answer from the inside and he opened.

- I perfectly know who you are, only you could walk outside at such a late hour without winter clothing, Sunghoon!

He shook himself when he realized my appearance.
I don't know what my face was looking like at the moment but his reaction surprised me, maybe, even more than what happened earlier.

- Well, seems like you're the one who came at me to be safe finally.

He let me in, I did.

Nothing more.

He continued to look at me, if he was afraid or worried it wasn't showing at all.

- Sunoo, it's me.
- Park Sunghoon, I know, who you are.
- Let me doubts it, even I, I don't know who I am.

He get closer and grabbed me to sit me on a wood chair.

- What happened? Are you drunk?
- I think, I killed Pilguez.
- You sound calm, and not so shocked.
- Pilguez, and all the others.

He looked at me again but this time he seemed a bit lost.

He goes away, letting me there by myself.

I looked at his living room, the place was so, so him, the window was closed but the curtain was still open despite the late hour.

The moon was shining outside. I lost myself a bit looking at it.
Doing that got me a weird vibration through my whole being.

I stood up shaking so hard that it was hard to stay still.
I lowered my eyes on my hands again, thinking that it would prove me if that was still reality, but they were different.

My nails was now claws, shining because of the blood that Pilguez had left on it.

My heart raced again, faster, and a frustrated growl got out my throat.

- Sunghoon?

Sunoo dropped the bath towels he had brought with him and stopped moving every one of his muscles.

- Oh please.

I couldn't say, or do anything.
I was, scared, controlling myself to not do anything horrible again.
If I didn't had any regret killing Pilguez, I couldn't let myself hurt Sunoo.

I felt another strong pain in my chest, forcing me to sat back on the chair trying to handle and calm it down, a second growl escaped and I grabbed Sunoo's wrist forcing him to let got the flowers he was holding to my body.

- I think...I did well to keep some of these...

His voice was shaking, I looked at him, his eyes were wet.

- Kim Sunoo, don't you dare crying.
- Are you alright?
- What to say.
- It burned you?
- Yes.
- Im sorry.
- Im thankful.

I let his wrist go and he goes back to close the curtain and take the towels back.

- You should take a shower.

No answer wanted to come out, I just agreed silently.

- Park Sunghoon, what would you do without me.