Messy; Renee Rapp

11

I was that friend renee was never supposed to have

i was that outkast

the girl with the messed up family

but renee? she was my girl from the first day i met her of 4th grade

it was merrily, a friendship that got out of hand

lies

little gay ella and little closeted renee were meant to be

always and forever

——-

flashback
the night renee go pregnant

There was cuddling
kissing
the two of them laid in the back of the truck bed

ella had planned it all

3 years dating her girlfriend
and ella was a corny simple girl and renee loved that

ella smiles at renee and kisses her softly

"thank you for being with me..i don't know what i'd do without you"

renee giggles and kisses her and sits onto her lap facing her

her hips moving slowly "mmm i have no idea what you would do"

in this moment ella realized

she forgot condoms

how stupid of her "b-babe we can't i don't have any c-"

she kisses ella "day after pill ella"

ella smiles and nods as she grips onto her girlfriends waist

things slowly get heated

and they go three rounds

ella not pulling out once

they lay cuddled up with each other as ella plays in her hair

"I never wanna loose you nae..you mean too much to me"

she nods and cuddles into her more

"you won't..ever"

"Your dad hates me tho nae"

"fuck him..it's my life not his"

—-

Reese was asleep in renee's arms
renee was scrolling on her phone as i walk over and gently take it "it's late nae"

"but i don't care"

"nae"

"ella"

i kiss her and she kisses me back "go to sleep"

"cuddle us and i will"

i chuckle and take my shorts off leaving me in my bra and boxers and cuddle her and reese and i kiss her head

"I miss this" renee says softly as she sniffs

"You don't have to..I'm here now.."

she nodded and sniffs agian and i pull her up laying reese down

"Do you wanna do this with me renee? Do you wanna risk everything for this "bastard child" as your dad calls her?"

renee kisses me deeply leaning her head on him

"shes my bastard child...and i want this..with you. i called my manger and i have an interview with the press..You and reese are coming"

"it's been a week since that concert though..isn't it too fa-"

"You and reese are my family ella..You her and my dumb ass bro"

i smile and nod and kiss her nose

"baby?"

"yes nae?"

"I love you"

i chuckle and pull her into me with reese "i love you more"

but as i laid

i couldn't sleep and renee felt i was awoke and sat up careful to wake reese

"what's wrong?"

"He won't hurt you..but he's made it very clear that he will hurt me and reese..it's dangerous for us"

i inhale deeply and look ella in her eyes

"I'll protect you with my whole self"

"that's what i don't want you to do tho nae..I don't want you putting your life on stop and go for us and that's exactly what you'll be doing..You should..Go home.."

renee sat blankly for a moment and chuckles

"I've been told who to be..how to live..My entire life ella..I've been sculpted to be what they needed to make money...You are the only person who sees me...Only me..Not regina George or Leighton murray..But me..You see me and you love me for me and ella if you make me go away all i'm gonna do is come right back to you and my child..OUR CHILD.."

i inhale snd think of something to say but i csn t find an argument to make her go

because i know jane too well snd when i wake up shed be right back in my bed

"I missed you.." i say softly
as she smiles and pulls me back down

"I've missed you more"

a/n
cute simple filler Ig
Can we show love to this? and not yano gatekeep that we're reading it

hate you. kidding
love you, mean it