Things That I've Once Said (Among other random things about me)

Why I'm most likely ADHD/Autistic/AuDHD

-Random anxiety attacks

-Needs to listen to music 24/7

-Laughs at inappropriate times (*cough cough* at funerals, which I've been to a lot lately, and lemme tell you, I was cackling the entire time. There wasn't even anything funny about it, but here I am, purposefully sitting in the back, stifling a cackle and grin XD)

-Cries at inappropriate times (Music is the only thing that's made me cry in a while)

-Does these weird lil hand things while listening to music

-Either grins or sobs uncontrollably to music

-Strange fascination with music

-Every word, letter, and number has an associated color

-Constantly getting in trouble for humming and tapping

-Will flat out get up and leave if overwhelmed (I usually go to the restroom in public places and just stand there on the verge of a panic attack)

-Hates loud noises and crowds

-Hyperfixation or literally no focus, no in between

-Will talk forever about me and my interests, leading me to usually say nothing at all about myself. (Both come off as rude ;-;)

-Forces eye contact, would rather not stare directly at you

-Fidget toys are superior and so are T-Rex arms

-Certain days, I just don't feel like talking- so I won't. I'll give the shortest possible answer if needed. (Ticks everyone off but I really don't care XD)

-Time management? What's that?

-Jokes about my trauma

-Favorite letters, words, and numbers

-Fascinated with the times 1:11, 2:22, 3:33, 4:44, 5:55, 10:10, 11:11, and 12:12

-I love numbers like '123' (counts up) '765' (counts down) and '777' (The same number 3 times)

-Overanalyzes everything

-Will forget what I'm doing in the middle of doing it

-Rocking back and forth is superior

-The arm flapping thingy is superior

-Everything has a color. Not like schizophrenia, but like the actual word in my head has a color. For example, 'August' is purple, '4' is green, and 'reading' is red-orange.

-My brain will start focusing on too many things at once and I need music to calm it down

-Hyperfixated on music and actors/voice actors. I could love this one actor/voice actor and know what movies/series they are in but have absolutely no idea what those movies are about or have ever even seen them.

-I'm a very visual thinker, I can visualize scenes in books as I read as well as give the characters voices in my head.

-I will talk in a random accent when im stressed

-I hate it when people cough or blow on their food to cool it down (and blow out the candles on a cake.) It spreads germs.

-Constant stimming, especially when I talk to someone

-I can see super complex and intricate patterns but have a hard time seeing the bigger picture.

-According to my dance teachers: 'I am great with the technique and can pick up choreography quickly, but I focus too hard on being technically perfect than actually performing' (aka making eye contact with the audience and smiling.)

-133 on the RAADS-R lets gooooo :,)

Yea that's about it. I haven't been tested for either one because my family doesn't 'believe in it.' Before you go off on me, lemme explain. My family just believes that we are all human, and we're not all going to be 'normal' and that's okay, there's no need to alienate the people who are less 'normal' by labeling them. While I do respect this, I'd also really like to know. People keep getting mad at me for not doing the right things at the right times and I just don't get it. Another reason why I haven't been tested is because that might hold me back in life.