My Love For You Was Bulletproof (SEQUEL TO LEAVING HOME)

Chapter 11

I woke up the next morning feeling great, the bed I had was so, so comfy. Usually hotel beds were hell to sleep in but this one was probably better than the one I had back in England. I was just perched up on the bed looking out of the huge windows in front of me that looked over the city. I decided to get out of bed and make a coffee, obviously I got back in bed straight after and carried on enjoying my view. When I was inturupted by a knock at the door. I groaned and put my coffee down on the side before looking through the peep hole and seeing Ronnie. I smiled and opened the door. As soon as I did I was pounced on and slammed against the wall by him, he attacked my lips and i giggled as I tried to push him off of me. "Ronnie, what are you doing?" I asked him as I walked back over to the bed and sat down on it. He came over to me and sat next to me "I couldn't stop thinking about you last night!" I smiled up at him as he pushed me down onto the bed and crawled on top of me grabbing my thighs and kissing my neck "Ronnie I thought you wanted to take things slow?" he growled 

"I can't resist you" I pushed him off of me and he sat up, I pulled myself up and pecked his cheek 

"So what are we doing today? It's new years eve!" I bounced up excitedly and he looked up at me with adoring eyes. He looked down at my legs and his focus stayed on my ankle monitor. I stopped dancing around and looked at him before following his gaze. I felt a little exposed now as I was only in my knickers and a vest top. "I'll be back in a minute" Ronnie declared before running out of the room. I was confused, what was wrong with him. I grabbed my robe and put it on covering my exposed flesh. He sure enough returned and told me to sit down on the bed. I didn't question it, he sat down next to me and swiveled me around so that my legs were on his lap. "If I do this you've got to promise me you won't drink exessivly okay?" I looked at him bewildered as he pulled a small key from his jacket pocket and undid the small lock so that the monitor on my ankle came off. I smiled widley "Why would you do this?" he giggled as he placed the monitor on the table

"Because I hate the way you look at it" he looked up at me and smiled "Me and the guy's are nipping out to go do something, but Jenn is just down the hall if you want to go hang with her" I was so happy to have this damn thing off of my ankle. I lept up and hugged Ronnie tightly "Thank you, thank you, thank you!" I squeeled into his neck. He grabbed my waist and kissed me before he left out of the door to go meet Jacky etc.

I was pacing my room, trying to think of things to so whilst the guys were gone, I could get ready for tonights celebrations but it was way too early. I also didn't fancy going over to Ryan and Jenn's room to see Jenn neither of us had ever really spoken. The sudden urge for a drink entered my mind and it made me feel sick. I decided I had no other option than to go and see Jenn, surley Ryan had told her why I had the monitor in the first place. I grabbed my bag and legged it down the hall to Ryan's room. I knocked and Jenn came to the door "Oh hey, you must be Deven right?"

"Yeah" I now felt it would be awkward if I just started blurting out to her about my alcohol problem and how I only ever wanted it when I was completley alone. I was shaking, I was craving it before but now I had that monitor off the feeling was worse. It didn't help that I knew that there was a bar downstairs and I really, really didn't want to hurt or upset Ronnie now that we were together... Well I think we were. Jenn let me in and I sat down on the sofa in there, "I don't know how long the guy's are going to be but, we can go out if you like" she looked over at me "Are you always that pale?" she asked me I nodded and then she came over to me "You're not are you, are you feeling okay?" 

"Y-yeah I'm fine" she looked concerned for me and it unerved me 

"You're shaking as well, are you going to tell me what's up?" I looked at her 

"Has Ryan ever told you anything about me?" she looked down at her hands

"Yeah, we've spoken about your little problem if that's what you mean?" she tried to say it in the nicest possible way but saying something like that isn't easy, especially when you have only just met somebody. "Well, I guess that's your explanation then" she sat next to me on the sofa 

"Do you want me to call Jacky?" I looked at her

"Why Jacky?"

"Well, you two are close right? and out of all of them I'm sure you would prefer Jacky's help to anyone elses?" I gave her a smile and then looked down at my hands "Maybe you need to lie down for a bit? I'll go get you some water, get into bed" she stroked my arm before going into the kitchen. I stood up slowly and laid down on Jenn's bed before she returned "Try and get some rest, think about something else" I took a sip of the water and laid back down, my head was aching and I never thought my problem was this bad. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.

I woke up to hear Jenn and Ryan talking, I kept my eyes closed so that I could listen in "Do you think we should call Jacky in and tell him she's not been in a good state?" I heard Jenn say. Ryan told her to be quiet "No, we don't need them involved, we're just not to let her out of our sight okay?" I heard her sigh and I took it as it was time for me to wake up. I rolled over and opened my eyes seeing Ryan. I felt better, I smiled at him "Hey sweet, how are you feeling?" he asked me 

"I'm fine, there's nothing wrong with me" we were inturupted by a knock at the door and Jenn went over to answer it. I grabbed the water from earlier and took a sip as I was feeling pretty parched and my mouth felt dry. "Yeah she's er in here" Jenn said to whoever was at the door I saw Ronnie walk in and I smiled at him  "Are you okay?" he asked me I nodded "Why are you in bed? and your pale" I smiled "I'm fine Ronnie" he came over and sat by me kissing my forehead. 

"Come on, it's 5pm, we need to get ready" Ronnie helped me to my feet and I followed him to the door way I mimed the words thank you to Jenn and Ryan as I walked out and into my room. 

Once I was in my room again I started to get ready. I grabbed the dress Ronnie had bought for me and put it on, grabbing my White jeffery Cambells to match it. I curled my hair and re did my smudged make up. I tried to make myself look less pale by putting a darker foundation on but it wasn't really working so I rubbed my cheeks until they looked Red and more colourful. I smiled into the mirror, hoping I would feel a lot better once I was outside. I paced the room as I put my coat on seeing the monitor on the table I grabbed it and shoved it into the draw below so it was out of my site. I went next door and knocked on Ronnie and Jacky's door. Jacky answered and smiled at my appearence. Jacky closed the door and came outside "Ronnie's probably going to be a while yet, but we can go wait downstairs with the others if you would like?" I agreed and linked arms with Jacky as we made our way downstairs to the lobby where Ron and Derek were "Where's Jenn and Ryan?" Jacky asked them

"They set off, they said they would meet us down there" I sat on one of the bar stools by the bar and a guy asked me if I would like a drink. I sucked my cheeks in and Jacky grabbed me from the bar and took me over to the chairs at the other side of the room away from everybody and anybody "Ryan told me what happened at Jenn's earlier" I closed my eyes "Are you sure you're okay?" I nodded "Jacky I'm fine it's just one of those days, now let's not ruin tonight okay?" I smiled at him and he stroked my hand before pulling me up over to Ronnie who was finally ready. I ran over to him and gave him a massive hug suddenly feeling a little better, now that he was around. Everyone looked at us strangley when I kissed him I guess he still hadn't told anyone, I blushed "Are you guys together!?" Ron exclaimed Ronnie chuckled 

"Yeah, we are, I wasn't going to say anything for a bit because we're trying to take things slow" Ronnie grabbed my hand and squeezed it tightly as we walked out of the hotel and into the city. 

Me and Ronnie were a bit behind the others, as we were walking a lot slower and having our own private conversation "You look a lot better than you did earlier.. hell you look stunning tonight" I blushed and pushed him away from me before snuggling into his side, he placed an arm around my waist and pulled me closer to him. I smiled as we caught up with the others. The city was packed with people and I started to get super excited about the countdown into the new year....