My Deepest Scar (A Tragic Teenage Love)

Ch. 9 - Secret Santa Pt. 1

*** 2 days later ***

Rohan: Hey.

Mira: Hi.

Rohan: How are you?

Mira: Good. You?

Rohan: Yeah, good.

Rohan: So, how's holiday? What are you doing?

Mira: Nothing. Just BTS.

Rohan: Ok.

Rohan: I just wanted to say I'm sorry for whatever I did in bus.

Mira: You don't have to. I didn't believe it anyway.

Rohan: Still, you seemed offended.

Mira: Who wouldn't be, Rohan? Would you not be offended
if someone made fun of your feelings?

Rohan: I didn't make fun of your feelings. It was just a harmless prank.

Mira: I didn't know you were the kind of person
who'd make fun of people's feelings, Rohan.

Rohan: I'm sorry. I didn't mean to.

Mira: Whatever, just don't do it again.

Rohan: I really won't. I'm sorry.

Mira: Yeah, ok. Bye. I gtg now my mom is calling.

I exhaled a deep breath. Talking about this more wasn't going to change anything. He chose to make fun of my feelings and I had let him. I shouldn't have told him, but it was too late now wasn't it? I can't change the past, so my only option was to get it over with. He'd forget if I never mentioned it again. And I had to maintain a distance so I wouldn't have to go through it again. I also should move on from this silly crush since I knew I wasn't going to get anything good out of it. The last thing I wanted was being hung up over a boy who wasn't even my taste. That just wasn't me.

If only I knew.

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1 month later

A month passed before I could even process it. I'd improved in my academics ever since I started to focus better. Atleast I wasn't hopeless when it came to JEE. However, my social life wasn't that great. Me and Karan fell apart because I'd told him I wanted to stay away from him. I really thought it through and I just didn't get good vibes from him. I didn't want to break a friendship but at the same time, I knew it wasn't right. Call it my girl instincts but I had a feeling being friends with him, or being anywhere near him would do me no good. I actually didn't know why I felt that but it felt right to break this friendship. Fortunately, he didn't react too bad. He was disappointed, but accepted it and stayed away. He wasn't entirely bad, afterall.

On the other hand, I'd gained a lot of new friends. I talked with most of the people in my class since there was only 20 of us. It felt good to be friends with everyone, especially after all the enmitand hatred in my old school. Aisha and I became closer every day. We had a lot in common except the physics part. I hated physics ever since the start and she loved physics thanks to her interest in quantum physics. She used to tell me all about the stuff she read in her quantum physics books and I'd take in as much as I can. I didn't understand much but I liked the way she explained the string theory. It was pretty interesting. I'd love to research about it with her if I didn't hate physics so much. I just basically suck at it.