𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐭 𝐑𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐬

𝟐𝟗. 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐏𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬

Sohana

"I can't."

I replied. The moment Alisha told me to confess him. I went numb. I can't. We are not mean to be together. I have accepted it. I don't want to get hurt more. I am already so much broken. He is so  broken. I don't want to break our friendship for my stupid feelings. I have accepted my fate, my luck. And now, I don't want my heart to break again and shatter into pieces. I have fixed my heart like we fix a glass.

Indeed, my heart is a glass.

"Why?" Alisha's words brought me out of my trancs and I moved my gaze towards her. Blinking my eyes, I stopped my unshed tears to not shed.

I looked at her and my lips tugged into a sad smile.

"We are not mean to be together." I said and looked directly at her eyes.

"I am not made for him." I said and she shook her head.

"No yaar, Don't you see how much he cared for you? How worried was he for you?" Alisha told me but I shook my head.

"No, Alisha I can't. It's not possible. We are not possible." I said and tears flowed down my cheeks. I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up. Rishi was looking at me and smiling.

"You should confess." He said and I looked at Nitya.

"Don't let your feelings stay in your heart for always." She said and smiled.

"But what if he rejects me?" I asked her and she furrowed.

"Oh shut up! Only a heartless person can reject the one who loves him/her so much." She said casually.

"Really Nitya? Are you sure?" Alisha said raising her brows.

I knew what she was referring to.

Nitya's face fell but she masked it with a smile.

"C'mon guys. What happened has already happened. Now you should focus on our Sohana." Nitya said and walked towards me.

"But-

"Par war kuch nahi." Alisha put her finger on my lips. I removed her finger from my lips and looked at her.

"Alisha, what if he won't reciprocate my feelings? Also, he told me that he will never love anyone again." I told her and she hit the side of my head.

"Pagal." She said and giggled.
(Crazy)

"Pata ha tumhe, duniya main aise bahut log hain jo apni dil ki baat khulke nahi keh sakte kyunki woh darte hain kehne se. Aur kuch log chahkar bhi kaise kahe samajh nahi paate. Aur kuch logon ko kehne ka kabhi mauka hi nahi milta. Aur sabse badi samasya to tab hoti hai jab log apne dil ki baat ko sunn hi nahi paate. Aur shayad sun kar bhi aisa vartav karte hain jaise unhone kuch suna hi nahi. Par agar ham unki unkahi baat ko samajhne ki koshish kare toh? Sohana, Insaan ek kitaab jaisa hota hai, samajh jao to uss kitaab ke har panne ko padhne ka mann hoga. Aur agar samajh nahi sake to phir tumhe to pata hai kitaab ki kya halat hogi. Dhul jam jayegi aur ant main fek diya jayega. Ruhaan bhi tumhare liye ek kitaab hai. Samajhne ki kosish karo. Keh do apni dil ki baat usse. Usko jaan ne do tumhare dil main kya hai. Kya pata agar woh bhi tumse pyaar karta hoga? Lekin keh nahi paa raha hoga bilkul tumhare jaisa. Isiliye keh rahi hun tum pehle apne dil ki baat khulke usse bata do. Dhul mat jamne do uss kitaab main. Agar woh tumhe samajh nahi paa raha toh tum usse samajh ne ki koshish karo. Padhne ki koshish karo usko. Uss kitaab ka ek hissa ban jao. Haan?"