uh...hi more language in this one sorry can I start putting Xs at the end of AN? No? Too bad. Thanks for the reads and votes you beautiful people xx
ps idek everything about dan and so yeah xx
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"Hey Shel?" Ciarra called to me from my bedroom.
"Yeah?" I asked as I walked out of my bathroom putting on rings.
"What happened between you and chris?" She asked me as I felt myself go tense.
"I uhm its uhm." I started to say not knowing what to exactly say but lucky I heard Cameron at the door downstairs
"We should probably go get that...." I said as I ran out of the room thanking God that I didnt need to tell her yet. When I actually do have to tell her, I dont quite know how I will word it. Im still trying to figure that part out. Getting to the door I opened it right away.
"Hey cam- youre not Cameron." I said pausing as I saw him in the doorway.
"What are you doing here?" I asked crossing my arms
"Just move." He replied.
"What are you doing here Chris? This is my room. You cant just tell me what to do here." I told him blocking the door way
"You know what Shelby you are-" He started to say as I saw his eyes get darker meaning he was getting frustrated with me.
"No no I dont Chris because I think I know things and turns out I know nothing because you tell me nothing!" I said cutting him off.
"Shelby you know that wasnt it." He said as his tone of voice changed making me feel guilty.
"Whatever Chris. I dont I just I cant care about it right now. What do you need?" I asked leaning against the doorway.
"You cant care about it? So what? Am I now nothing to you? And Felicias upset and Cameron sent me. He said to go meet him." He said
"No Chris let me use your words you know that wasnt it. Its just you just. I cant with this right now Chris." I said sighing and running my hand through my hair, "Alright come on, Ill show you her room." I said before backing up and opening the door wider before turning around to start walking.
"Shel?" I heard Chris whisper grabbing my wrist.
"Yeah?" I whispered back turning around
"Im sorry." He said right when I was about to reply, Ciarra walked in acting like she wasnt hiding behind the wall. Too bad I heard her come down the stairs earlier.
"Oh hey guys. Uhm I was just leaving to see Tyler...." She said nervously before leaving the room and it filling with more tension. Turning on my heels I walked straight towards Felicias room. Youre suppose to be upset with him. Dont back down.
"I called." He said as we walked up the stairs breaking the silence.
"I know I got them. I got the texts too." I said not turning my head to look at him and just kept walking. He pulled my arm to a stop.
"Shelby why are we fighting like this? Its us. We dont fight. We shouldnt, we arent you and Tyler." He said as I turned to look at him.
"You tell me Chris." I said as the flashback started.
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"Okay so it was about two tours ago and I was chilling with Allstar Weekend and everybody on the All the way tour and soon its time to take stage. I had a feeling something would happen that night. Oh did I have a feeling. And I walked onto stage and the third person in front of me took my breath away. I had never felt anything by just looking at her before. Never once had that happen to me. She was wearing a stripped jacket that looked a little too heavy for the hot venue but I didnt care because she looked good with it. And she was wearing ripped jeans as well. She was dancing with the people around her but I think she only knew two of the girls cause she talked to them most. She literally took my breath away and every time we caught eyes she would turn away. Perfect I thought we're singing What Makes You Beautiful tonight too. Well after the concert I went looking for her. I couldnt find her. Damn I thought. But I moved on. Next tour comes around and we landed ourseleves back in Arizona. I had a good feeling again that I was going to see her. And I did. But she didnt come for me. She came for our friends in the opening band and left with them and I didnt get to talk to her. I spent weeks trying to find her with Tyler and I did. I found her finally. After Tyler gave up and he thought I did too. I found her. And we talked. Crazy right? We talked for about two months and then we got into a fight. She wants to skype or facetime or SOMETHING just to see what I looked like and I couldnt, no wouldnt, because I didnt want her to know me as Chris Bourne the bass player, I wanted her to know me just as Chris. Well we stopped talking. We both decided to stop because she wanted to become closer I mean we wrote letters to each other and I knew what she looked like but why couldnt she know what I looked like? I still wrote though. I just never sent them. I wrote everyday. The boys all thought she did something to me, but no it was me who was scared. And then I saw her again while playing football. Shelby I didnt want to tell her anything cause I didnt know how. If I told you I was in a band itd ruin everything. And I couldnt tell you everything because youd know it was me. I was in a situation I had never been in before. And so I hid everything from you because thats what I thought was right. Im so sorry Shel, Im so sorry." I heard him say and I couldnt take it anymore. I got up, opened the door with tears streaming down my face and let out a sob as I saw how broken he looked but there was still a little hope left in his eyes. I pulled him straight into a hug and I felt drops of water hit my shoulder and I realized I wasnt the only one crying. So was he.
