Ideal | ni-ki

Chapter 28 • Finally

Chapter TWENTY-EIGHT

I looked at my watch for the last time, finally hope leaving my inner system. 5 hours. That's how long I waited here....at the park.

A immediately wiped the tear that escaped my eye. I felt I was having my hopes up. Ni-ki never replied to my messages, I couldn't even call him. Did he ditch me? Does he have good explanation? Did he finally realize his true feelings? Was everything just a joke? That I'm too old for him?

"Maybe it's impossible after all..." I whispered to the air before finally leaving the park.

I put my shoes in the box with my heart dropped to my stomach. I haven't eaten lunch and I don't think I'll ever have an appetite.

I went to my room and locked it. I plopped on the bed, with my face on the pillow, crying my heart out.

Minutes later, I heard soft knocks on the door.

"Serena..."

My heart continued to drop lower to my stomach as I heard his voice. What excuse is he gonna give me?

I heard the knob being turned and continuous knocks can be heard.

"Serena...love..." His voice was gentle and pleading. "...let's talk please."

"Go away." I said loudly. I don't have the energy to talk to him right now. Maybe I'll hear his side tomorrow.

"I know you're mad at me but please hear me out. Let's talk please. Please love?"

"Why did you say you love me, ask me out and then leave me there hanging? I made sure to look presentable and you made me wait for 5 hours, Ni-ki! Without any messages or calls nothing! If you don't love me at all, you could've been honest." My voice was already cracking at the last part as tears continue to flow down my cheeks. I look like a mess now.

"What? I was being honest when I said I love you. Just please let's talk okay? If you want to hurt me, punch me or slap me, you can. Just please open the door...." His voice is cracking as well, sounding so tired and in pain.

I sniffled and waited for few minutes before deciding to open the door. But my emotions were immediately washed away by horror when I saw Ni-ki's blooded shirt as he holds his shoulder.

"Omy God. Ni-ki, what happened?!" My heart is now beating fast against my chest as my eyes widened in horror.

Ni-ki didn't say anything as he comes in my room. He walked fast towards me, grabs both of my cheeks and smashed his lips on mine.

My mind  couldn't process what is happening. First, he's bleeding again. Second, he is kissing me.

I closed my eyes and cherished the moment. His lips moved slowly as he devoured my lips. Then, we both pulled away but he kept the close distance between us as he wipes the tears on my cheeks.

"I made you cry, didn't I?"

"Ni-ki, you're hurt." is all I said.

"I love you so much. You're so fucking beautiful." He then connected our lips together.

I pulled away first since I need to focus on his bleeding shoulder. "Ni-ki, can you just please tell me what happened? Please."

"We were ambushed by the enemy at our meeting place unexpectedly. I got shot but, I'm fine now. They got the bullet out and stitched me up, so you wouldn't worry. I'm sorry, love." He explained as he caress my face.

I feel guilty now. I didn't even give him benefit of the doubt. I should've trusted him first but emotions got into me thinking he already ditched me. Ni-ki is not that kind of person.

"I'm sorry for thinking you ditched me. Ni-ki, you can't scare me like this everytime. You're always hurt. What if one day..." I couldn't go on. The thought of him gone pierces my heart.

He pulled me into his embrace, "I'm fine. I'm sorry, Serena. I love you."

I wiped my tears and let out a chuckle, "But I'm too old for you."

He smirked, "Like I fucking care."

I looked at him in the eyes and finally blurts out, "I love you Nishimura Riki."

His eyes widened but then softened as his lips curled up in a smile. He pulled me closer as his lips plants on my forehead.

"You don't know how much you make me happy." He whispered.

"You don't know how much you scare me." I joked and we both laughed. "You need to rest Ni-ki. You'll have the bed this week again."

Ni-ki sat on the bed but pulled me towards him so I am now looking down on him.

"You look beautiful on that dress." He said.

I smiled, "I look like a mess already. I need to wash up and change clothes. I'm getting a new shirt for you too."

"Can you sleep with me tonight?"

My eyes widened as I was taken back. I held his face and nodded, "Okay. I'll sleep with you."

He lets go of me as I went to the bathroom to take a quick shower. I changed into pjs and I handed Ni-ki a clean shirt to change into. My heart dropped to my stomach once again when I saw the stitches on his shoulder. I can't imagine all the pain he's been getting just because of his work.

"Hey, why are you crying?" Ni-ki spoke so softly as he wiped my tears away.

"Can you please promise me that this will be the last time you'll get hurt?" I sniffled.

Ni-ki held my hand and gently rubs it, "I'll try my best okay? Don't worry too much."

"You're too young to be in pain like this. You're always hurt and it just scares me everytime I see you bleeding. If you need me, please just tell me. I will protect you just as much as you protect me." I looked at him straight in the eyes as I say those words.

We're on the bed, under the blanket, talking face to face.

"Okay." is all he said before pulling me into an embrace. "Tell me you love me."

"I love you."

"Really? Can you show me?"

I softly pinched his cheek, "I love you Ni-ki even though you are the most stubborn person I've ever known."

"Not a little brother anymore aye?" He teased, raising his eyebrow up and down.

I playfully pushed his face away, "Ew no."

"Then can you be my woman? My other half? My lifetime partner?"

I pretended to be shocked, "You're already proposing?! Too early for that!"

"This is not the way I will propose, baby."

I laughed and said, "Yeah I know and I will say no because you are not proposing to me on my pjs."

"How can you say no this face huh?" He teased and then poke my side. I immediately reacted because of how ticklish I am.

"No, Ni-ki. Stop. Don't." I said in between laughs.

"No? Noooo?" He continued to tickle me and kiss my on the cheek at the same time as we laugh on bed before dozing off to a deep slumber.