Just A Little Bit Broken

chapter five

Vic's POV

It is currently 12 pm and I am very.. very drunk.
I needed a way to get rid of the thoughts inside my head so I went to all I could think of. I know what you're thinking. Why not go to Kellin? Because he wouldn't understand. I really wanna kill myself right now.

"H-hey waiter person!" I yelled.
"where's the nearest train station?"

"About a block north of here." he replied. I got myself up and walked there. Before I knew  it I was there. You know what I just realized?

This is the place kellin tried killing himself and this is the place we met and the place where I saved him.
The guy I love. Tried killing himself. Before I knew it I was bawling.

"Oh my god kellin I need you so much."
I yelled in between sobs.
I knew the reason I came here was to kill myself but how could I kill myself where my boyfriend tried killing himself. I don't know what to do. I fell off the bench and I'm not laying on the cement ground in a ball half screaming half crying.

"I can't do this anymore! I can't I can't I can't I can't!" I said between sobs.
I pulled out my phone and went to kellins contact. I called and it rang and he didn't answer. Of course. He doesn't want me. Nobody does nobody ever will. My phone started ringing and I just threw it and I could hear the screen crack.
I can't do this.
I can't do this.
I can't do this.

Kellins POV

"Common Vic, answer." I said to myself. I was getting worried because he called two times and I knew he went out tonight. I was in the bathroom so I couldn't answer it. I called for the 4th time and he still didn't answer. That's it. I'm gonna go look for him. Sure, I only have my permit but I don't even care. I grabbed my moms keys and set out. I went to every bar there is except for one. It's called Black Light and it's like one of those heavy bars. I don't think Vic would go here but you never know. I stepped in and went to the bar tender.
"Excuse me!" I yelled.
"What can I- aren't you a little young to be in here?"
"I'm not buying drinks I'm looking for someone. Have you seen a guy, he's short, about 5'6, long brown hair, brown eyes, nose piercing?"
"Oh yeah, he came around here about an half hour ago asking where the nearest train station. He looked pretty wasted.

My heart just fucking stopped.

"AND YOU LET HIM GO OUT TO A FUCKING TRAIN STATION?!" I yelled.
He put his hands up in defense.
"Hey man I was trying to help a guy out."
I ran out the door ramming through people getting nasty comments in return.
I sprinted down the street and I saw the train station come into view.

That's where I saw Vic standing by the edge sobbing violently yelling something I couldn't understand.

"Vic, no!" I yelled.
He turned his head in my direction and his face fell and he started crying even harder. I heard the familiar train siren coming and Vic started moving forward.
Each step seemed like years.
That's when he stepped out.
And down he went into the tracks.
"NO VIC NO!" I screamed .

I got there when the train was about 15 feet from Vic. I jumped down into the tracks and shoved Vic's body out of they way and everything went black.

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I'm floating
It's black
I see nothing but my own reflection.
Am I dead?
Am I  alive?

"Kells! Kellin!" I hear it echoing.

"Vic? Vic where are you!"
I yelled out.

"Kellin baby please wake up! I can't lose you Kellin please baby wake up common baby snap out of it stay with me."

I feel a hard surface I'm laying on in real life but I'm still floating wherever I'm at.

"Kellin baby listen to me you don't leave me I'm sorry for what I did baby please don't go, I can't do this on my own."

I felt my body being lifted up in real life but I'm still stuck here.
"Common Kellin wake up wake up." I could hear Vic whispering in my ear.

Wake up Kellin wake up. I keep telling myself.

The black is starting to fade and I feel myself coming back to reality. I know I'm back in reality but my whole body aches and I feel like I can't even move. I try opening my eyelids and I only can a tiny bit. I can tell I'm being held in familiar arms. Vic's holding me and crying into my hair.

"Kellin? Kellin you opened your eyes baby are you with me?"

All I can manage out is a small groan.

"Kellin I'm sorry this is all my fault this is all my fault I called an ambulance they are on their way baby I'm sorry I wasn't thinking straight but please please don't go baby please don't go." He was hysterically crying.

"Kellin I love you. Don't go." He whispered in my ear.

"I love you too." Was all I said before I slipped into the darkness once more.