I'm Not Of This World

Chapter 25: Biggest fear

MIKAYLA DAVIS

"Bro, I need to get home before my rents get back." Arnold's voice was heard all the way from the stairs as he got down

I know he has no clue on what happened, including me being here.

My hands on my knees as anxiety kicks in

"Don't worry too much, micky." Jayden's voice makes me look up fast

I sigh

Jayden tried to be with me all the steps of the way, but it does not fix the invisible tension there is between us.

And since he is so afraid to face the problem we have, I will leave him. As I said, maybe he was just a temporary friendship.

"He's going to freak out when he'll see me. That's a fact, jayden."

My palms are sweaty because I can not just get over the fact Arnold is relapsing, and he does not want to let me know.

Lucas laughs historically. "Although I have to admit, that was fun, and I don't even remember a thing."

"Same here. I don't even remember how we got back." Arnold admits

I hear them come down the stairs.

They both reached down the stairs, and I hastily stood up from the couch I was seated on and looked behind as the staircases were located behind me.

"Shoot." I heard Arnold mutter beneath his breath

He rubbed his hands on his face.

Lucas stands beside him with a hint of embarrassment on his face.

Arnold, I thought we were done fighting this demon.

But it seems like we are not

"Listen, mikayla," he starts

"Stop." I lift my index finger

"Why Arnold? Just why? And hiding all this from me? I guess we are not as anchored as we should."

The disappointment kicks in.

I looked at Lucas and back at Arnold.

I turned around to make my way out, but before that, I needed to at least show my gratitude to Jayden.

"Thank you so much, Jayden. I appreciate the comfort and support you gave me and even helping me look for Arnold."

"It's nothing. I'm here whenever you need me."

I passed him a smile

"How about I give you a ride back home?" He offers

"That won't be necess-." Arnold started

"Actually, i would appreciate that." I cut him off

He walks over to the door and opens it for me, and i go through, and he follows behind.

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"We need to talk," Jayden says

This surprised me. Jayden needing to talk? And he's being clear on what he wants?

Wow

We are in his truck on our way home.

I am on the passenger seat as he drives, and Arnold is at the back.

I scoff. "Wow, go on."

"Listen, Mikayla. I'm sorry. I actually am." He sighs

I feel he has more in his chest to take out. Hence, i stayed quiet and listened.

"I didn't mean what i said. I just tried to push you away because," he pauses

"Because?"

He looks at me for a second.

"Because I'm scared, mikayla."

I groan "Jayden you keep on saying this. What are you scared of? Am i someone you were forbidden to hang out with or something?"

"It's not that. I'm scared of losing you. That's my biggest fear at the moment.

"So you would rather lose me by pushing me away than naturally lose me?"

"I have lost so many people in my life, mikayla, and it hurts losing the people you love the most. At times, i feel it's my fault. Sometimes, i feel i carry some type of curse. With everything going on at home with my mom, i think it's making it hard for me to act and think properly at this point."

I stay silent, taking in everything he said.

"Christ can heal you. You know that?" I question him

"Mikayla," he sighs

"No, Jayden. God can heal the wounds you still have due to the fact you lost loved ones. He can, and this is what I have, and i give it to you. Stop running away from him. Don't you see that you've gotten worse the moment you ran away from him? He awaits your return, and remember you are never too dirty or sinful for him to accept you back."

"I get it. Once again, I'm sorry, micky." He parks the truck on the driveway of the house

No car is in the driveway, meaning mom and dad are not back yet.

At least we're not in trouble.

Finally, something I was waiting to hear from jayden, im sorry.

I don't know where we go from here with our relationship, but im just glad he apologized.

"Thanks bro for the ride." Arnold passes him a forced smile

"Anytime." Jayden goes over to him and pats him

Wow, arnold said nothing all this time i and jayden talked? Surprising

Now it's just me and jayden, facing each other.

"I-I guess i have to get going, oh and apology accepted." I stutter as his gaze made butterflies erupt in my stomach.

He still made me anxious because i still might have feelings for him.

He smiled and reached out for my hand

I looked at his hand movement, then him in shock.

"I care a lot about you, micky. You never gave up on me in our friendship despite my tantrums. Once again, I'm sorry like I really am-."

I cut him off. "Jayden, it's okay. I'm also sorry for what my brother did to you."

"No, come to think of it, i deserved it." He chuckles

"You are such a sweet soul, and what i did and said to you was something you did not deserve at all." He completes

I smile

"You are forgiven, Jay."

He takes up the hand he has been holding for the past five minutes to his lips and kisses it.

"Good night, princesa."

I hear Arnold clearing his throat loud enough for us to hear.

We both look at him, and he taps his wrist, indicating it's late.

I turn around and start heading to the house.

A/N

Hey fam. Short chapter I know. I will definitely do better in the next.

What do you think of the fact that jayden and micky are on good terms now? Is it too early?

What do you think of Arnold?

I personally enjoyed writing this chapter, and I hope you enjoyed reading it, too.

Love yall loads, but Christ loves yall more❤️