Vampire Teacher Wattys 2015 (PUBLISHED)

*chapter 19*

We stared at each other for what seems like forever but I finally decided too look away. Taking a step back, I bit my lip to contain myself from screaming.

What the fuck was that Ava? Holding his cheek? Really? You're so stupid he'll be more awkward towards you-

"You should go" Well there he goes.

"Right" I smiled at him, trying my best to not show how embarrassed I am.

I took a few steps back before giving my back to him. I quickly turned the doorknob, not caring if he noticed how badly I wanted to leave.

Rip Ava's dignity.

"Ava" Daniel's soft voice echoed making me stop.

I closed my eyes and sighed dramatically. Let it go, let me live!

"How can you be so sure that I'm not like that" I sighed and smiled to myself.

"I just know Daniel" With that I opened the door, slamming it shut before he can say anything else.

I stayed there for a few minutes, trying to process what just happened.

I pinched my nose before walking towards my room. With each passing day here things just got weirder. Then again, a day spent in this house nothing is normal.

Daniel isn't the monster he thinks he is. He sees himself like that because of what everyone says. But in reality, he's just a lost boy wanting to be loved. 

A monster wanting to be loved and accepted.

My head began to pound as my fingers touched the door of my room. I shut my eyes, leaning against the door. When I re opened them all I can see was red. I let out a small gasp as my heart beat quickened.

No, no, no, please not now.

"Hey Ava" My whole body tensed up as my breathing stopped. My whole body was frozen into place as I heard a soft voice.

I shut my eyes tightly when I can feel my fangs showing.

"Please g-go a-away" I stuttered, getting nervous as my body begins to shake in anticipation.

"Are you okay-"

"Go away!" I screamed, suddenly losing control. I grabbed whoever it was and pushed it into the wall, slamming its head in the process. 

I can't see straight, I can't think, all I can see is red. All I can smell is its blood. 

"A-ava" It croaked out. I ignored it as I pushed it if possible further into the wall. I squeezed its neck tightly making it scream in pain.

"Ava!" My senses were suddenly back. I gasped and let go of whoever it is. 

I heard footsteps as I stepped back, my hand covering my mouth as I took in the image of the girl lying on the floor in front of me.

Ethan was infront of me all of the sudden but I didn't acknowledge him, I was too focused on the girl that was lying on the floor. There was blood on the wall, blood from that girl. I hurt someone who was just greeting me. I almost killed her. I almost killed someone.

I'm a monster.

"Get away from me" I said, not bothering to hide the fear in my voice.

Ethan of course ignored this. The minute his hand came in contact with my arm all hell broke loose.

"I said get away from me!" I screamed at him, making the girl lying on the floor inch away from me as well as the other maids who came with Ethan. 

Ethan didn't seem scared at all, instead he grabbed my other arm making me scream.

"No let go!"

"Take her to her room" I heard him said as he pushed me into the wall, holding me down.

He pressed his body into mine as he wrap his arms around my waist. He was too strong for me and all I can do is cry into his chest. I cried into his chest muttering a few words which he ignored completely. His arms tightened around my shaking body, making me somewhat calm down.

When I was stable enough, I pushed him gently. I avoided his eyes and looked at the blood smeared at the wall.

"Ava-"

"I don't understand" I said, my face emotionless and dull. He knitted his eyebrows in confusion.

"What?" 

"I don't understand" I repeated myself.

"What do you don't understand?" He whispered, his eyes soft as he stares at me.

"You" He frowned at me.

"Ava"

"How can I fix someone else when I can't even fix myself" I looked at him as a tear slipped. 

I backed away from him and silently walked towards my room. I opened it and shut it gently. 

I looked down at my wrist. I balled my fists together as I stared at the scratch marks on my wrist. 

Monster.

"Why me!" I cried into the empty, lifeless room. 

"Why does it have to be me!?" I screamed, hoping that I would get some answers. I saw movements to my left and I snapped my head only to be met by reflection. 

I backed away from the mirror while shaking my head. My eyes were still red and my fangs were still there. There was blood on my lips and wrists.

Monster.

Monster.

Monster.

"Make it stop!" I screamed throwing a hairbrush into the mirror. Loud crashing echoed throughout the room. I pulled my hair as tears streamed down my face. I slumped into the floor hugging myself, trying to protect myself from my own demons.

I cried harder as I hugged myself. I always screw things up. I always snap at people, I always hurt people. I can't control myself, why am I so different. Why can't I be normal.

Suddenly someone wraps their arms around me, pulling me into their chest. I inhaled Daniels scent, making me calm down. My body somewhat stopped shaking as he rubs comforting circles into my bare shoulder. I leaned my body into his, shutting my eyes.

"Shh" I heard him whisper from my head. I shook away the images earlier, my body suddenly panicking again. Daniel held me closer as I started crying again.

"Shh it's okay" I shook my head. That's what everybody says even in reality it won't ever be okay. But what Daniel said next made me stop completely.

"Everybody's got their demons, even wide awake or dreaming" 

Hello everybody! This is a shitty chapter I know, I will edit this as soon as I can. I actually wrote this but somewhat can't focus on the right words to use. But anywaayyyy... HAVE YOU GUYS HEARD JET BLACK HEART?!!!! IT IS SO GOOD AND AMAZING AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH UDW;FJNDNWOHNNA. okay I gotta stop fangirling now gvbsnssqhuijsmansdk. 

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PURPLE KISSES XX