My brother ( kian lawely ) book 1

6. Adopted

Then jc says he adopted her I look at jc my face must have been priceless but this is only just the begin "I've been thinking about adopting a child and I thought why not so us 5 went to the adoption centre and here she is" jc says this is the point where not only do I want to die cause clearly I wasn't good enough so they had to adopted a anther child but also I was gonna have panic attack the walls start closing in my chest was tight so it was hard to breath jc carried on talking though hey might die but carry on I'm joking I was great at hiding panic attacks so no one could tell "her name is Melanie she's 11 years old blonde hair blues eyes" jc says one year older what she also sounds like the perfect child to uhhhh I'm so insecure about how I'm am I hate being skinny for 1 because people will stare at me 2 lots of boys like skinny girls but I don't want a boyfriend I know euan but that was only a joke where not gonna go out duhhh kian started shaking me '' yeah what" I say confused I've been trying to get your attention" he says "yeah" I say not caring this could possibly be the worse day of my life I will never be good enough for anyone mostly kian 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 "hey zoey we are gonna make a video all of us okay" jc says I nod wow you know how I said this could possibly be the worst day if my life it is we all get ready while jc is setting up the video all the boys went on twitter and asked for questions about the family but no matter what Melanie is not my family so cause my couch is massive is could fit 7 people on Melanie sat right in the middle while Ricky Conner Trevor sat one side and jc kian and Sam sat the other side great I can see it now I'm not part of the family anymore I sit on the floor right in the corner so you could see me but I was right in the corner crossed leg hating. My life damn jc started the video "what's up guys it's me jc and today I'm joined with Conner Ricky Trevor kian Sam and Melanie my new adopted child we are doing a q and a so you could know a bit more about her" he says I'm done with this bullshit I get up and walk out the door he can't even remember me I start crying I never cry ever like at all except the day my dad "zoey" I turn round and see all the boys walk out the door I start running I'm not an idiot they will do the intro again and pretend like that didn't happen and cut of the truth and I'll just me ignored threw the whole video so I'm running abd crying its hard to do both okay I know where to go Walmart why I'm going there you ask well in the car park there's like a little path that lead to a river but in the trees I go threw there's some bean bags that I used to go no one can see me and nobody's knows its here so I relax well I say relax i ball my eyes out fml