My brother ( kian lawely ) book 1

Crying

Zoeys POV:

Still at Walmart I'm gonna go now though I've been here for 5 hours I brought my phone so yeah I started walking I don't need to run cause I need to get fat so just keep walking I'm nearly there i start walking extra slow cause I'm near my house my house people I lived there for 10 years I'm obviously not gonna go threw the front door I climb up the drainpipe and threw my window I'm in bitches I go into my bathroom it's massive I just do my stuff and think just think my life won't be the same I could make the most of it or I could die I'm joking I come out my bathroom put on sweatpants and on Kian's top I stole it from him it's massive I sit on my bed ( imagine zoeys room as Lauren Elizabeth's old room) I pull out my laptop and click on jcs video he did the intro again cutting of the truth I'm sitting in a weird position I put my laptop on my pillow and lay down under the covers watching the video so they do questions just getting to know a bit more about her then I see kian pull her in for a hug she justs sits on his lap while he's hugging her then he says omg god he says "my favourite girl in the world" she just smiles I start crying that hit me so hard I close my laptop put it on my desk and just cry and cry I hear someone knocking on my door I stop crying wipe my tears and say "come in" trying to sound like I'm haven't been crying someone opens the door and see Melanie I stand up and step back right up to my wall "hey zoey we haven't met properly" she says I couldn't take it I don't cry In front of anybody I mean anybody but I slide down the wall and cry she walks out I don't care anymore shiz I'm getting a panic attack the walls are closing in my chest is tight my heart hurts its beating fast I'm I'm breathing really fast I'm losing it I can't hind it i can't do this I hear people walk but I can't see who my legs are tucked in my head is on my knees I'm freaking out I'm crying someone picks me up I wrap my legs round them and burry my head into there chest I'm calming down now but I feeling dizzy I can't to this anymore always having panic attacks they won't go away they won't leave me alone some people walk out but I'm still crying in one of the boys arms i look up and see kian I hug him tight I can't lose anyone else he hugs me back I look up to him "I love you" I say "I love you as well" he says at this Point we are crying are eyes out hugging each other somebody's recording we just hug

Later

I'm in my bed I've calmed down now I'm just on my bed trying to relax they guys suggest Melanie slept in my room I said no straight away like bitch my room my rules let her sleep on the floor for all I care most of them are going back to the o2l tomorrow only Sam and kian are staying I'm just trying to get over the point no matter how hard try I will never be as good as her

Next morning

I'm not going to school this morning kian said I shouldn't fine I'm not gonna say no I shower and do my stuff I put on black rip jeans and my gangsta t- shirt it's white and says gangsta in black I put on my slippers really pulls the outfit together I walk down stairs and see Melanie in my hang on a second MY o2l t-shirt "hey that's my t-shirt" I yell at her "sooooo" she says confused "take it of" I say "nope" she says hell no I slap her she slaps me I get on top of her and grab her hair she's punching me I'm bleeding bad my visions blurry she scratches me and blood starts coming out of me we are both yelling kian and jc runs down kian grabs me and jc grabs her I'm shaking badly like I'm scared I'm not scared but I'm gonna get her I charge forward Kian's grabs my arms and holds me "let go" I yell "yeah let go so I can punch that brat" Melanie says fuck no I'm screaming my head of Sam comes down with the others Melanie does not have on scratch on her both my arms are bleeding bloods coming out of my nose there's a massive bruise on my head and my hairs messed up and everyone checks if Melanie's okay kian lets go of me to check on Melanie I'm on the verge of crying I run upstairs and I don't climb out my window I jump and I land on my ankle fuck this hurts like hell Sam comes running out the front door and comes to check on me I can't move my ankle hurts so bad this is all Melanie's fault Sam has to call the hospital "zoey are you alright" Sam asks " why don't you go check on Melanie