I'm frightened that I know the truth.
And even though it's meant to be beautiful.
It feels like you're holding a knife to my neck.
I never wanted this nor did I need it either.
I'm still trying to fix myself.
Becoming whole isn't that easy.
I'm a product of somebody's mistake.
It's forever impacted my way of heart.
I never wanted to hurt you.
Or inflict any kind of pain.
Nobody should ever love me.
It will always lead to inevitable hell.
It sounds so physically childish.
Because I'm still that young girl.
I'm afraid of what I want most.
My deepest fear is oh so intense.
No longer do I know what I want or need.
I've always been too comfortable alone.
So what the hell am I supposed to do ?
When I'm so damn deadly scared.
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A serious poem and how I'm currently feeling. I feel like nobody knows how deep and intense this certain fear is. Especially when you've been traumatised by it. It's all so very hard, it's like a rock being pushed down onto your chest. You're breathless and afraid, it's oh so saddening. Love is meant to be beautiful, unless you associate it with pain. That's when it becomes your worst nightmare.
Sincerely Yours,
Liliana.
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Poetry (2015-2017)
PoetryThis is poetry for the soul from Yours Truly. Volume 1. "We don't read and write poetry because it's cute, we read and write poetry because we are members of the human race." - John Keating aka Robin Williams. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Co...
