your point of view.
3 YEARS LATER.
I sat in front of a perfectly placed tripod with my usual smile in place, waving at the camera I repositioned the guitar on my lap. "Hey guys it's Y/N and today is the third anniversary of this channel and to top it off I finally hit the one mil mark so as promised I'm finally going to post the original that I've been promising for like ever so I hope you enjoy." I shot the camera a wide smile and took a deep breath.
I drove by all the places
We used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss
How it felt, the way it tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine
Are you somewhere feeling lonely
Even though he's right beside you
When he says those words that hurt you
Do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
Cause I'm not fine at all
As I sang the chorus the memories of when I wrote this song and the heartbreak the came with it suddenly made home in my chest.
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
Cause I'm not fine at all
flashback (three years ago)
"Y/N we have to talk to you." Lauren took a deep breath and sat down on the couch in the living room with four serious faced girls following behind her. "All five of us."
I nodded at the five girls and gestured for the green eyed girl to continue.
"Um, Promise not to be mad."
My eyes flickered from their faces to their nervous movements. "Why?"
"Just promise Y/N." Normani cut in.
I nodded and ran my fingers through my hair. "Fine I won't be mad."
The five girls shared a look and Lauren nodded towards Camila who took a deep breath. "Y/N we auditioned for the X-Factor."
A wide smile broke across my face. "Holy shit guys why would I be mad? That's amazing."
Ally gave me a pained smile and took over from Camila continuing what she was saying. "But it's in L.A.."
My eyebrows furrowed in confusion. "Okay?"
"Y/N we won't be here for senior year."
"You mean.." I trailed off looking at each of the girls faces.
Camila nodded and scruffed her black converse across my rug. "We won't be graduating together and IF we win we go on a victory tour right after."
Dinah took over. "Y/N you won't see us for the next 14 months if things go well for us."
The pictures that you sent me
They're still living in my phone
I admit I like to see them
I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking
Why I'm not around
It hurts to know you're happy
Yeah it hurts that you moved on
It's hard to hear your name
When I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened
Was it just a lie?
If what we had was real
How could you be fine?
Cause I'm not fine at all.
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
Cause I'm not fine at all
"F-fourteen months?"
Lauren nodded and put her head down but it was obvious she was crying which in turn started the waterworks on my end.
"Okay that's fine. We can just hang out until you guys leave. When do you guys leave?" I sniffled and watched as four pairs of eyes filled with tears and Camila flickered her eyes to my own.
"Y/N we leave today."
If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
Cause I'm not fine at all
I stopped strumming the guitar and wiped the stay tears that had fallen out.
Cause I'm not fine at all
No I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
Cause I'm really not fine at all.
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A/N / to anyone who was confused about the last chapter of Mine, here's you sort of explanation. It goes more in depth as the story continues though. Next chapter you meet someone a little.. familiar. Any guesses? (No it's not the girls yet)
song: amnesia by five seconds of summer.
