Baby Mothers #2 ( Bryshere Gray -ON HOLD

Chapter 9

Briana

Another morning and bryshere's not by my side , I went to my son's room and got the suitcase that I packed when bryshere fell asleep and we left.

India

I woke up this morning and the first thing I thought about was bryshere , why ? I don't know . I have a high school crush on him it's like when I look at him for that moment the laws of gravity doesn't even exist anymore and to think that I ever had him is what hurt more. I swear it feels like I'm battle my feelings for him and I feel like fighting for him ? But why fight for him ? Is he worth it? He did leave me for Briana

Bryshere

I came home early in the morning from fucking the same Spanish bitch I swear she's a loyal.
When I walked in I was wondering why Briana wasn't waiting for me like a desperate housewife , I went to our room and it was a letter that said " bye Bryshere, When you learn how to respect maybe you can see your son , but there's no more us "
Who does this bitch think she is ? My blood started boiling I was mad I started throwing things around , I grabbed my phone and called her 5 times she didn't answer , I threw my phone at the wall , And I grabbed the bottle of Henny out of the liquor cabinet , it started calming me down a bit and I could only think about calling one person : Briana

Am I going crazy ?

Briana

I took bj to my closest cousin kalonie house in Lancaster , so me and bryshere can work out some issues at home , I couldn't leave bryshere to suffer even if I wanted to , he's my friend and we both went through so much I just want him to know how it feels to lose someone at a time of need , let him sufur like I have these past months . I was at the gas station buying blunts and someone bumped into me and I saw Chris
Chris - either you're stalking me or the universe wants us to be to be together.
I laughed
Me- the universe wants something but not us together
Chris - I guess we gotta find out

I smiled genuinely , The only two times I smiled genuinely these past three months was because this guy I hardly know

Me- nice seeing you again

Chris - we should really keep in touch

Me-most definitely, we at least gotta give the universe a chance

Cashier- sir , you're dropping your milk

Me and Chris were unaware of the milk that was dropping on the floor and we laughed it off and exchanged numbers.

On the freeway I had my roof down and smoking a blunt with the wind blowing in my hair and I never felt so alive a tear fell from my eye cause I couldn't understand anything all I can think about is how life got so fucked , I got home and opened the door and found bryshere passed out on the couch an a empty bottle of henny on the floor , I lay up under him and wrapped his arm around me and snuggled up to him and fell asleep , after a while he woke up causing me to wake up and he said "Briana ? Where's bj ?"
Me- he's with his cousins I didn't want him to be around this

Bryshere - I'm sorry Briana
I slapped him and tears started rushing "HOW DARE YOU ?!"

Bryshere - I don't know , I don't know what I was thinking ,I love you

"STOP LYING , I THOUGHT YOU REALLY LOVED , I WAS SO SURE OF IT , I MEAN YOU DID TAKE A BULLET FOR ME, DID YOU NOT ? ENLESS YOU'RE BRYSHERE'S doppelgänger I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND "

Bryshere- baby , please understand I have issues and I need you , you know I'm no angel
Me- I'm not either bryshere !
Bryshere- I've been through so much it's unbearable!
Me- And you think I haven't ?
Bryshere - I know you have
A thousand tears fell from my eyes and my words cracked with every word I said
Me- but what did I do for you to cheat on me ?
Bryshere - I don't , I don't know why I do these things Bri
Me- don't call me Bri ,please don't want good memories of you calling me that with ones like this
Me- I love you SOOOO MUCH MORE THAN I WANT TO
He began to get up and a tear fell from his eye
Our for heads touched and we stayed like that admiring each other's existence for a while he has rubbing his hands on my back and I had my hands on his cheeks I stood on my tippy toes to kiss him and I could smell the Henny all in his breath but I couldn't resist his kiss I never could til now , I let go of him and walked back slowly and looked at him from a short distance " I think we should take a break " I said with tears streaming down my face.
Me- take care of yourself , Bryshere
At first I was planning on staying with him but the more I thought about it the unbearable feeling feeling took over everything else that's hurting me in my life. Lily the thought of him touching and loving on someone else and intentionally hurting me , I couldn't do it , I couldn't look him in his eyes. Out of everything that I'm going through that's the only thing I can't take.