Don't Hug Me I'm Scared (X Reader)

Pesky Little Love Bug (Part 1 of 2)

A/N: Finally getting things done, I'm officially moving in with my mom! Whoop whoop! Plus I'm home schooled now so I can update more often, I still really need help making a schedule though... But I'll talk to my cousin about it. Hopefully she'll help.                                                                  

Silence. 

That's all you wanted.

and you weren't. Fucking. Getting it.

Shrig decided to come and visit which, unfortunately, turned into him moving in as well. Meaning now there's a hundred percent chance of NOT getting any peace in this house. You're only here to take care of your little cousin, Manny, who you were teaching how to read. He's the reason Shrignold is talking about love. Manny had read your recent diary entry, with out you knowing of course. Luckily you didn't put any names in it or that little big mou-- I mean-- that amazing little ball of joy that you love, would've told the "pesky bee" that you loved him. Which would have ended your life right then and there from total humiliation and complete embarrassment. Yet for some reason, he's still harassing you for being in love, demanding to know who your 'special one' was, and for the love of God he wouldn't give in! 

"Leave her alone you pesky bee!" Robin said, walking into the room seeing you sitting on the couch, eye twitching in annoyance. 

"But she won't tell me who she loves! I have to know about her special one so I can make a canon OTP, Robin!" Shrignold whined. 

"She doesn't have to tell you anything, you pest." Robin spit back.

You'd totally have to thank Robin later for the help. You gave him a thumbs up as you successfully slipped out of the room and into the back yard. Pulling out your iPod you decided to listen to a song from Hercules. The catchy tune of 'I Won't Say I'm In Love' blaring in your ears, out of instinct, you hummed along. Not in the mood to put in the full effort and own this song with your angelic voice. Walking towards your favorite tree, you struggled to grab onto the branch. 

'Stupid short legs and stupid tall trees, how the hell does ManMan get up here so easily?!' 

With a frustrated face you began to pout, deciding that sitting under the tree would do just as good. 

You didn't want to love the pesky little love bug, being as since your secret reason for moving in. You were recently in a loving relationship with the one you thought was your 'special one,' only to realize that you were fucking stupid to think a long distance relationship would ever  work out. It did last nine months though, so I guess you could say, you were engulfed in this relationship, only for you to be kicked in the heart and of course your emotional stability which was murdered, just like your hope in love. You wiped your face, at least he's happy with his cosplaying goddess. You decided that maybe singing would help take your mind off it. 

"I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when ya start out
My head is screaming, 'Get a grip, girl!
"Unless you're dying to cry your heart out!'
Ooooh oooh"  You sang quietly to yourself, unaware of your butterfly friend sitting above you in the tree.

After the song had played through, you sighed, knowing that it didn't really help, but only made it hurt more. Your eyes began to sting with tears. "God, I miss him so much..." 

Tears started to stream down your embarrassed red face, which you quickly hid in your hands. "Why am I never good enough for anyone?" 

Shrig heard your voice crack. You were his special one, and he wanted you to be happy. To him, you deserved the world, the moon, and the stars. Anything you wanted, he would make it happen. He watched, feeling his heart strings snap at your poor, shaking figure below him. How he wanted to pull you into his arms and tell you everything would be okay, but he couldn't, knowing your heart still belonged to the ungrateful punk that ripped it out of your chest and stomped on it. Leaving you to bleed out and scream in pain, wanting nothing but for it to end. It was a slow healing process, he knew this, he once had a different special one that did the same to him. "I wish he could feel how I feel, just ugh, rip his heart out and watch it beat while he begs for mercy.."