WWE Oneshots

Paige: Fight Song

⚠TRIGGER WARNING!⚠

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

I walked out of the hospital and sighed. I'm here again because I'm weak. You're weak. My mind constantly spat things at me. Like, you're worthless, you're nothing, nobody loves you. Sometimes it was hard to handle.

That's why I was here...

At the hospital...

The second time this month.

I try pushing the thoughts away, but they just get worse...

I'm so much of a screwup, I can't kill myself right.

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?

I'm always screaming for help, yet nobody hears me...

I've done self harm for a long time and nobody ever noticed.

Until this incident happened...

You see, my mind is cruel. It says cruel things, and I believed it. One day it was all too much, I tried to end it. End every cruel thought. End me...

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

I turned to look at my best friend, AJ Lee. "I'm sorry." I cried out. "You have to stop." She said and held my wrist, I flinched and pulled it away. I felt the pain returning in my wrist.

I looked down.

"No, listen to me..." She lifted up my head and locked eye contact with me.

"How do I stop?" I whispered out, holding tears that were threatened to fall down my face.

"Fight."

Losing friends and I'm chasing sleep
Everybody's worried about me
In too deep
Say I'm in too deep (in too deep)
And it's been two years
I miss my home
But there's a fire burning in my bones
Still believe
Yeah, I still believe

We got into her car and she started it up.

AJ held my hand and slowly pulled up my sleeve. I was scared for her to see it. For her to see how bad it was. For her to give up on me...

She gasped slightly at the sight. She ran her fingers over the cuts, causing me to flinch.

"You need to fight."

"How do I fight?"

"Don't give up." She replied and pulled out of the parking lot.

"But I've already have..."

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?

I laid my head back and I felt my phone vibrate.

I looked down and opened the message I had just received.

You're worthless.

I nodded agreeing with the person. I am, aren't I?

"You're not." AJ kept her eyes locked on the road. "Not what?" I asked. "Worthless." I swallowed the lump in my throat, "You saw that?" She nodded.

I turned to look out at the darkness of the road.

I wish I could believe her.

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

She pulled up to my house. I hesitated to open the door, not wanting to be alone.

"I love you." AJ said peering over in my direction. "I love you too." I shut the door and walked to my house. "BE SAFE!" She called from the car.

I watched as she drove off into the darkness. I took a deep breath and walked into my house.

I sighed and walked up to my bedroom. I walked over to my bed and saw a note.

Dear Paige,

I know how awful you feel. It will be okay, I swear to you it will. You might not believe me, but it will. Stop thinking you're worth nothing. You're worth so much, I can't even put it into words. I don't want to live my life without you, then I won't be okay. I need you to be okay, so I'm okay. I'm nothing without you. I love you.

Love,

AJ Lee.

I smiled and put the note on my dresser.

A lot of fight left in me

I walked over to my box... My box of giving up. I picked it up and walked downstairs.

I walked over to the trashcan and dropped it in.

I won't, I can't give up... For AJ.

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

I walked back up to my room and changed into my pajamas. I felt free.

Free of giving up and full of hope.

I walked over to my mirror.

You're pretty and you need to believe it.

I nodded. I can get better. I will get better.

This is my fight song (Hey!)
Take back my life song (Hey!)
Prove I'm alright song (Hey!)
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong (I'll be strong)
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

I looked down at my scars. Scars that are nothing more than memories.

I'm changing...

And it's for the good.

My phone buzzed and I looked at the message.

Face it, you're nothing.

No. No, I'm not nothing anymore. I'm worth something.

I'm worth something to AJ.

That person... That person is nothing. Nothing to me now. They don't affect me anymore.

I laid down in bed and closed my eyes.

No I've still got a lot of fight left in me.

I felt truly happy I'm living another day.