Diary of A Teenage Nerd (A Liam Payne Fan Fiction) UNDER SERIOUS EDITING

Hiding My Feelings from Everyone

 I wanted to update because I wanted to clear this whole situation that is going on with Raines and Liam. So I hope this somewhat clears things up. But the next chapter is going to be even more of a shock. Trust me. It's just getting good.

Raines' POV

    Liam stared at me. Tears slowly began to fall from my eyes.

"I...I'm sorry," I muttered and stood up, walking away from Liam. I could never ever face him again. I never would. I couldn't. I knew I had hurt him. I knew he would never forgive me. I knew that he would never want anything to do with me again. But that's what I wanted. I didn't want him missing me while he was gone. And now that I've done this, he won't ever miss me. Ever again.

  I quickly walked around the corner, wiping tears from under my eyes, knowing I couldn't cry because my parents would notice and they would want to know what was going on. And I couldn't tell them what I had done to Liam. They'd be too disappointed in me.

  I crossed my arms over my chest, watching my feet. Wind began to blow and I heard thunder from above. I stopped walking and looked up at the sky. A few drops of water fell on my face and then the drops began to fall rapidly. I lowered my head and blinked a few times. The streets soon were empty as rain started to fall harder. I looked around the street. I was only a block from my apartment so I didn't mind walking. I actually liked walking in the rain. It made me calm. And that's all I needed right now. Was the feeling of calmness.

  I looked around at the streets again. No one was around, not even any cars. I guess there was a pretty bad storm coming.

"It's hard to find the perfect time to say something

You know, is gunna change everything

Living with the shame

It ain't nothing like the pain I saw on his face

Now me and my pile of things

That he threw out the window

Drowning next to me

No few minutes of good

Can't hide the one time I told a lie

So let it rain, let it pour, he don't love me anymore

Just let it come down on me, let it come down on me

Every word, let it hurt, even more than I deserve

Let it come down on me, let it come down on me, let it rain

Last thing I remember was the all to familiar taste of him on my lips

It's too late to around

When the shades start coming down

The guilt you feel's the last thing on your mind

So let it rain, let it pour, he don't love me anymore,

Just let it come down on me, let it come down on me

Every word, let it hurt, even more than I deserve

Just let it come down on me, let it come down on me, let it rain

So let it rain, let it pour, if he don't love me anymore,

Just let it come down on me, let it come down on me

Every word let it hurt even more than I deserve,

Just let it come down on me, let it come down on me, let it rain