BTS imagines

Taehyung- Like A Butterfly

[Sad concept]

Dear Tahlia,

It's me, Taehyung. Remember me right? Well... where isn't much to remember, though I still hope that you do. I don't know why I ask you to not forget me, when I'm not worth it. I chose the path of forgetfulness on my own.

Yet, I am still writing this letter to you, because I partly hope that you will understand my decision.

It was a sunny, and warm day. The one that you really have no desire to sit at home or workplace, by the desk and work your butt off. Luckily for me, I had a day off and it was going to be the most amazing day ever, as Taehyung invited me at the beach to have a brunch and maybe hit the waves. I didn't care what are we going to do as long as I was with him.

I let the cold water slowly wet my feet as I stepped deeper and deeper into the ocean. Taehyung was taking the food, I had prepared earlier, out the bag and putting it on the blanket. He tripped and almost fell facing the sand.

I chuckled happily and ran to him. The old abonded bridge squeeked in the total silence as waves got quiet and it outshined my giggle making Taehyung surprised then I came to him.

He lifted his gaze as I tapped him on the shoulder and smiled. For my surprise, sourly. As if something had hurt him. But I was sure he didn't injure himself while tripping. At that moment, I didn't understand it wasn't physical pain I should have looked out for.

"Tahlia, may I say something?" His face changed. He frowned as if he was about to groan in agony and my heart raced seeing him like that. I sat down slowly stroking the back of his hand hoping for the expression to switch back to his bright self, but it never did. Never.

"Something wrong?" I couldn't understand why my voice cracked as I tried to speak. Like my heart knew what was going to happen before my ears heard it. Before my brain accepted it. But wait, I refuse to believe it 'till this day.

"Yes." Thats not an answer I was hoping for. My heart stopped beating and then the wind got stormy, the sky turned grey, I don't know where all of it came from, since just moments ago it was claer blue sky without a cloud. "I didn't want to bother you earlier, but I can't take it anymore."

He was too afraid to look me in the eyes and it made worried sick. I grabbed his hands. "Whatever it is, we can over come it together!" I was full of hope. Still. I thought he was too. I thought he was my hope. But no. "No, it's too late." He shook his hand and I wanted to slap him and yell at him and say that it's never too late. However he had already made up his mind. "I was dealing with this depression for too long to fight it now."

He exhaled and I shook. Not from the wind, cause there was none, but from his words. It just proved me one more time, that deepest mental pain can hide behind brightests faces and find a cave in the kindest hearts.

"Wha-at do you mean?" I felt my eyes tear up and Taehyung gently brushed off the tears. "I have to go Tahlia. I really do." He said and I saw that his shoulders couldn't bear the pain any longer as he started running.

I stared in awe watching him getting further away from me. I felt like a monster for not stopping him. But at the same time, I just thought he just need some time, some space and some help. I thought he was coming back. Soon or not, I was ready to wait for him.

I didn't know that my waiting would have been useless. As Taehyung jumped on the first ladder step something in my mind clicked that it wasn't the place he was aiming for. Or at least not the place I hoped him to go to.

He was so fast, even known running, I still reached the ladder only then he was already on the top of the bridge. Taehyung glanced back at me and shook his head. I was trying my best to reach him on time, but I was unable.

"Tahlia, don't hurt yourself." He warned me, smiled, the sweetest and most importantly a real smile, and jumped. He just jumped. I stopped at the middle of my way watching him fall down in the waves as Taehyung waved his hands in air right before diving in.

He didn't even seem like drowning or falling. He seemed to be flying as if he had wings. The time slowed down and I watched him slowly make his way to the ocean. At first I thought he won't even reach it, he will fly away like a butterfly and I hear his happy chuckle.

But everything that comes up, must come down. It's just a law of natur. And we, silly humans, must follow it. We don't have a choice, but for one moment standing on that bridge, I really did think Taehyung broke all the rules.

But we're just humans. We get hurt and raise again. We fall in love and get our hearts broken. We find friends who are forever or we keep and cherish the memories of those who had left us. We're just humans and we can not fly as depression sunk us down like a rock under our necks.

You didn't know about my depression, because all the smiles through pain, they weren't fake. You couldn't see a glimpse of act in my smile because you were my reason to smile.

Love, Taehyung.

To @_TaehyungTrash_

A/N
I was writing this when I waited for my turn to the doctor's office and all the different emotions in people's, surrounding me, eyes just clicked inside. Sorry for the sad concept, tho that's what request was about~
-Tang.