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Luke Hemmings
August 9th, 20-
Sydney, Australia
Dear Journal
I can't stop crying. Calum got out of rehab today. He left as soon as he did. I think it's because he thought no one cared. It's sad and scary. I've been with him for as long as I can remember. He was my support. He was like a lifeline. But after he got into rehab I couldn't bring myself to visit him anymore. 8 months. That's how long it's been since I last visited him. That's how long it's been since his family stopped visiting him. That's how long it's been since his mom was diagnosed with a ruptured brain aneurysm. I remember he told me he met someone. I remember him rambling on about how beautiful he was. How soft. How gentle he seemed. I thought he was in love. His name was Tyler. I found Tyler. I went to visit him. He told me he got out of rehab 6 months ago and would visit Calum every week
He wasn't there for the release. So Calum just left.
I can't help crying. I'm so fucking stupid. Why would I leave him like that. I don't think I'll ever see Calum again. 16 years gone. I wonder if he's happy. I hope he finds someone to love. I'm pretty sure he caught a trip to Chicago, but one can never be sure. He was my light in an abyss for so long
He was the only one who could ever calm me down. Now it's all gone. I'm left in the abyss. Fuck I don't think I can do this. It's 4am and I'm here crying my eyes out. I'm calling Ashton.
He will understand, I think. I can't help it.
-Luke

That was the last journal entry made by Luke Robert Hemmings before he left. He wasn't heard from by his family again. He kept the occasional touch with Ashton but that was all. That was the night he basically disappeared from the face of the earth. Or at least his home. That was the day he bought a ticket to New York and didn't look back. That was the day he started anew. That was the day he unknowingly dived into the deep end of a hurricane. That was the day he walked into something, or someone, that would break him

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Is this TOO confusing? Is it too short. I keep saying this but I'm building up the plot HOPEFULLY it'll get better soon
Does anyone actually even read this jfc