Can We Save Phan? (A Phanfiction) (A sequel to What If Phan Is Real)

Chapter Four!

Mentions of self-harm my lovely's!

Phil's POV

Neither of us moved from the same spot unless we needed to drink or eat. It came midnight and we were in the middle of a Buffy episode until Dan turned it off. "Heyy.. I was watching that!" I moaned and Dan shut me up with a kiss.

"Shut up and stop being so adorable," Dan said placing the remote down next to him. "Ok I confessed, now its your turn, what did you do to try and forget me?" He asked and I done the same as him, listened to music, lots and lots of music.

"A song," I said quietly looking down at the floor when Dan lifted my chin.

"What song?" He asked and I took out my phone and played it for him.

(you know what to do... If you don't look in the last chapter and repeat.. Oh and you may stop the song at 4:40)

I saw tears glistening in Dan's eyes and I wiped them away with my sleeve. "Shh... don't cry Dan-bear!" he sniffled and sent me a smile.

"I love that song Phil," Dan said and pulled me into a tight hug.

"Me too," I whispered into his ear. "Dan, can you sleep with me tonight? I need you by my side," I felt him nod on my shoulder and sniffle a bit as the song was still making him cry a bit.

"Ok, lets go to bed then," Dan said standing up and taking me to his room. He stripped down to just his boxers and I changed into some batman pyjama bottoms. "Cute," Dan said as I crawled under the sheets by his side. I pecked his lips quickly and snuggled into his chest.

"Thanks, I'm freezing" I said cuddling up to him a bit more. Dan kissed my forehead and rubbed my back.

"I've got you, don't worry, I'll warm you up," he said still rubbing my back as I nestled into his chest more. "Good night Phil," I heard him whisper.

"Goodnight, love you," I placed a few kisses on his torso then drifted off to sleep in Dan's arms, I had missed doing this, I missed it a lot.

*

I saw the sun peep through the curtains and I looked at Dan who was wide awake with bags under his eyes. "Babe, you are going to have to start sleeping shortly, you're pale, I mean you're actually pale, Dan Howell is pale, what have the Danosaurs been saying about your paleness?" I asked crawling up to him. He looked down at the floor.

"I don't have any more Danosaurs, I stopped making videos," I never knew this, I was going to get him making videos again, I don't know how, but I know I will.

"Why? And I'm sure you still have Danosaurs, you didn't delete your account did you?" He shook his head. I grabbed the laptop from under the bed and brought up Danisnotonfire. I looked at Dan's face when the screen said that he still had over 2 million subscribers. "And look at the comments, so many people want to know where you are!" I exclaimed pointing at all the comments.

"Fine, I'll make a video today," He said climbing out of bed when I noticed something.

"Dan get back here," He looked at me confused and slowly walked over to where I was sat on the edge of the bed. "What have you done?" I asked tracing my fingers over the scars and slits on his legs. He whimpered when I traced over the newest one.

"It doesn't matter," he said walking away and slipping some jeans on being careful to not rub his jeans against his cuts. He slipped on a jumper and walked out, I was following close behind.

"You're in pain, of course it matters you douche-bag!" He walked into the kitchen and propped himself on the counter flicking on the kettle switch.

"I'm not in pain, if anything it pleasures me when I cut... but not in a sexual way like you," he winked trying to escape from the serious matter by making jokes.

"Shut up," I said, I was angry the most, I didn't like the fact that he was cutting and not telling me why and if he was still doing it. At the same time I felt like crying and hugging him and never leaving his embrace.

"Look Phil, I was joking, that's the way I carry on, I make a joke of things, whenever me and Alex were walking down the street and saw someone smoking a joint we would say 'Hey that'll kill you... eeeshhh' and just take the mick because it helped me Phil!" He held my shoulder as I was just about to leave the room. "Please, please don't leave," He smashed our lips together and they moved in sync, so this is what true love feels like?

A/N So because I updated today, there wont be an update tomorrow but there will be on Monday :D