Urges| s.reid

10

Holly's POV
(2 Days Later)

"How is he?" Garcia asked me threw the phone. I glanced over at Spencer was asleep on the couch in the jet. The doctor had lied to us, and he had just been released this morning. Although the team had already left we did have another plane at our disposal.

"Physically I think he's fine but I don't think he's going to like me doing everything for him when we get back." I said to her and she nodded. I turned to glance to make sure that he was still asleep. "Hey Garcia can you do something for me?" I asked her while bitting my lip.

"Yeah of course." She said before I began rambling into the phone.

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"Hey." I said to him with a wide smile as he swung over to the counter on his crutches. He gave me a gruff smile, he didn't look alright. He didn't seem to like being on crutches. "How'd you sleep?" I asked him and he shrugged. Spencer had seemed a little down since he got put on crutches.

"It was alright, couldn't get up when I needed too." I then felt my heart ping with pain as the thought of Spencer not being able to get up to use the bathroom or to get water. I bit my lip as I let his words rung through my ears.

"Well I mean I could-" I paused as the idea that came to my head made my stomach churn but in both a good sense and a bad one. "Never mind." I said shaking my head, he then looked up at me with cereal still in his mouth that had yet to be chewed, curiosity all over his face.

"What was it?" Spencer asked and I shook my head knowing that I was unable to speak the words that had popped into my head as an image. "Holly what was your idea that I was sure was brilliant?" Spencer teased, I bit my lip.

"I was thinking that we could like stay in the same-same bed I mean I know it's stupid." I said him, he looked at me like it wasn't a bad idea but I knew was. "Like I said never mind." I continued to him with the shake if my head.

"Could have been worse idea." Spencer said to me then smiled. "You could have suggested a bell." Then I broke into a laugh and nodded. We were both amused and no longer focused for a second on my option.

"If I had suggested a bell you should have shaken me like one." I mumbled and he smiled at me. No his eyes burned into the side of my head as if he was contemplating something.

"Sounds like a good idea." He said and I raised eyebrow at him, what was he saying? Didn't we drop this subject? "I think you being there is a good idea." Spencer mumbled and I swallowed a large lump in throat.

I should have never said a thing. I knew that if I got to close to him again that feelings would resurface, sure I was concerned before because he was hurt but I didn't like him. Sure I freaked out but he's my best friend. Morgan and Prentiss's constant insistence that Spencer liked me made me wonder even more and made me question the idea even more.

"When can you be back in the field?" I asked him trying to change the subject to something a little more mundane or normal.

"I don't know, Doctor said two or three months." Spencer then nodded with a small voice fading out. "But I should be fine in a month and a half or so." He insisted. I shrugged with a small nod. I couldn't look at him because I knew he was still thinking about what I had said before.

"But you can still work right?" I asked him purely out of curiosity and I hoped he didn't take it any other way. I still wasn't all that close to anyone at work besides Garcia, who was never with us. Besides her and Spencer I wasn't that close to anyone. Blake was mostly with Hotch or Rossi, JJ with Morgan or Spencer. I was just sort of there.

"Awe are you worried you'll be left all alone?" Spencer teased me, my cheeks turned red before I chomped down on my lip, gnawing at it to keep from saying anything. "You are." He said in a more serious tone. His eyes wondered over to me.

"I'm just not that close to anyone else." I said with a shrug, I twisted my foot at the ground while I tried not to look at him. "And is it wrong to be worried about my best friend?" I asked him nudging his arm. He smiled.

"Your close with Garcia." He pointed out and let his tongue escape from his lips to wet them. I watched his lips and his jaw tighten as he waited for a response but I could tell he was still stuck on the idea of us sharing a bed.

"Garcia doesn't go with us." I pointed out to him, Spencer sighed and looked up to me. His shaking hand the reached out to cover mine.

"I can still go on cases."

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A/N

This chapter kinda sucks thou....

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