The sadness that I live in

Please.... Let me give up

I just want the pain to fade

So I don't have to keep up this damn facade.

Im so sick of trying!

I'm so tired of crying!

I'm afraid death is the only way.

But I have to plan it perfect

I can't get caught.

Cause if I do.....

Then I won't be able to escape.

My reality is tearing me apart.

I can't hide in my stories anymore.

I'm not good enough for my family!

My friends don't need me!

My heart is giving up.

And I'm afraid I am too.

But if I do not say goodnight,

If I get caught or intercepted before I take flight...

I don't want any of your damn pity.

Cause if I do get to escape.

I will go out as a warrior.

So people know that

I

Kept

Fighting!

Until I could fight no more...

(A/n hey guys...I'm thinking really suicidal thoughts lately...I just want the pain away! I don't know if I will or not...but... I might as well prepare for if I do, right? I don't know.,...)