I walked to my home with heavy steps, trying to clear my suffocated mind that is full of thoughts-about Jaebum. Now that I think of it back, it does makes sense; 5 idols, familiar faces. It's got5 from the successful JYP Entertainment! I jolted up, clicking my tongue once.
"Could have guess it earlier..." I muttered under my breath, rubbing my face slowly in frustration. "So does that means, he's going to be here for the next 3 months?" I asked myself while kicking an empty bottle.
What's wrong with me?-Once, I want us to be together like old times. Once, I don't want to show my face to him. Once, I hope we were never really fated to be best friends. I couldn't understand myself, let alone Mirae.
But to be honest, deep inside, I've been longing for this moment. Jaebum...How long has it been since we ever spoke to each other?
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I arrived in front of my house. It's almost dinner time. I took a nap at the playground, just because I don't feel like going home. And the slightest chance that I might bump into him on my way home is also the main reason.
"I'm home, mom, dad!" I shouted, while trying to open my shoes.
Mom swiftly opened the door "Come in. I have a surprise for you" She gave me her mystery smile, dragging me into the house.
"There you go"
I stumbled for a while, trying to balance myself. I looked up "Mom whats with—" I stopped.
"Do you like it?" She turned to me, expecting a great response. "Minhee?"
"Sure" I gave her my fake smile. I bowed to Ms. Im and Mr. Im who is sitting at the dining table, besides them, is Jaebum, coldly looking down onto his plate, poking his foods.
"How are you, Minhee?" Mrs. Im asked me. "You expectedly grew up gorgeously"
"I'm fine, Thankyou. And you too Mrs. Im" She chuckled at my comment.
"We're just about to eat. Gladly you came just in time. Have a seat Minhee" Mr. Im said with his father-like smile.
I bowed to them and take my seats in front of Jaebum, since that was the only option I have.
The elders talk about their stuffs, leaving us both drowned in our own thoughts.
"Jaebum? Say something to Minhee. Don't you miss her?" Mrs. Im said, turning her body posture to Jaebum.
"Let them have their space. They are teenagers now, remember?" Dad said, making the elders giggle. Slowly, one by one left, leaving me and Jaebum, awkwardly.
There's not much things to talk about. I mean there is, but just not like this. Not in this situation; a situation that I thought would never occurred between us. I looked at him, who is still looking down. Whenever I tried to open my mouth, I close it back.
The atmosphere is so tense I could feel it through my bones. 'Should I or shouldn't I should or shouldn't I' I thought to myself.
I gather up my courage "Hey Jaebum" I fixed my tone into a more casual tone.
He looked up and stared at me "Hey." Soon, he fixed his gaze to his empty plate, yet again.
"How was it?" I asked him. Hoping that he would understand what I'm really trying to say. How was it? Living without me?
"Great." Still looking down. His tone seems gloomy, and disturbed.
"Oh. Sure it is" I chuckled-awkwardly.
He looked up again, looking deep into my eyes. "How was yours?" This somewhat feels so edgy.
"Could be better" I said, avoiding eye contact. "It's been a long time, Jaebum" I muttered under my breath.
"I'm sorry" He take a gulp of his juice, and stood up. Pressing his lip into a thin line, he said "I'm sorry for everything" He walked away, heading towards the living room.
"It shouldn't be like this..." I stuttered while holding my tears. I grabbed a hold of my hair, sighing frustratingly. "This is not what I ought to" I thought we would make it up, confessing to each other or stuffs. Is it true that I'm nothing but his forgotten childhood best friend?
Jaebum...I didn't know we would ever be like this. I've missed you, for 8 years.
He really does change a lot, it is too noticeable it keeps bothering me.I buried my hand in my pocket, searching for my phone.
"Jackson. I-I li—like you"
decided to publish a chapter in my short hiatus just because i feel like it. no more updates until this upcoming May (it depends) hehe. i have my exams, and i cant really blame it cause i don't really work my ass up to study. see ya next month!
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