broken + phan AU [ON HOLD]

☕Chapter 12☕

Basically Dan's thoughts, warning please pleaseee skip if you don't want to read about depression, but yeah if you want some encouragement just go to my rant book. :)
And there are a shit ton of song references in this one sooo.. get reeeady!!

Dan's thoughts.

"Can you hear the silence? Can you hear the dark? Can you fix the broken? Can someone feel my heart? No, no one can do those things. Especially fixing the 'broken'. I was too broken, I was too much of a problem to everyone. I was a harm to everybody. I'm sick of this system, don't wanna hear it, it's not a secret, that I'm also a reject. A reject. These words are knives, and often leave scars. When I thought my demons were gone, I was so wrong. I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim. I can run, but I can never ever escape. Maybe I'm a waste, filling up the empty space. Just think of it, no one is dealing with your demons, meaning maybe defeated them. (Don't agree with that, cause I know I'm depressed too). I feel like I'm stuck in walls, but they added more. Were four walls not enough? All I've got are these four walls, it's not too hard to feel so small. These things are stupid. I wish I could just wake up with Amnesia, and forget about these stupid little- gigantic really, things. They ask, 'are you sure you're fine? you look a bit down.' I look a bit 'down', cause I'm not fine at all. I wish someone would beat me black and blue, every wound will shape me, and every scar will build my throne. Should I let these emotions out? It'll probably be softer when I say it, this why sometimes quiet is violent."

So much song references omg

Here are the songs I got the references from:

- Can You Feel My Heart by Bring Me The Horizon

- Rejects by 5SOS

- This Is Gospel by P!ATD

- the first song

- Shadow Moses by BMTH ^^^^

- Something's Gonna Give by All Time Low

- Kitchen Sink by TØP

- Car Radio by TØP

- Better Off Dead by Sleeping With Sirens

- Amnesia by 5SOS

- Throne by Bring Me The Horizon

Yeah, those are the songs I think I used.

I LOVE ALL OF THESe BANDS ANDA,SS,KSSKWKW (fangirling RIP Alison)

#mess

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- ally