broken + phan AU [ON HOLD]

☕Chapter 14☕

*first person Dan woop woop*

TIMESKIP TO 2AM

I felt something bad, sad and depressing is gonna happen today.

But it's gonna be numbed by Phil.

I hope.

"Of course. You know what will happen? You'll realise that nobody cares about you. But you realise that right?" The voices laughed.

"Fuck off."

I was worried.

Really,

Really,

Really.

Worried.

I bolt up and run to my sister's room.

Then I saw a sign on her bedroom door,

"Please, you can go inside, please, read the note on my bedside table. :)"

How dare she put a smile-y face on a situtation like this?!

I open the door and go to her bedside table.

There was a note.

I grabbed it and I see, the thing I'm most afraid of.

"Hello, if you are reading this...

This is my suicide note."

My sister was still 18.

She had a lot to discover.

"I... wasn't the most perfect girl alive - well, dead now.

I was just an average girl, I always wore a smile, I was really happy-- for a short while.

Everyone's got their demons, even wide awake or dreaming.

I'm broken,

And now that you know it.

Can you see inside?

That all I've got is a jet black heart.

Heh, 5SOS was one of my favourite bands.

I was always called ugly and too skinny.

If I was awake in a generation that don't care about reputation,

I would just say, "This is the wrong generation."

Also, MAKE AVRIL LAVIGNE MAKE MORE MUSIC PLEASE.

I don't love myself.

I hate myself.

I don't deserve to be alive.

That's why I'm writing this.

The voices, won't leave me alone.

We are possessed, we're all fucked in the head.

Alone and depressed.

So, mum, dad, Ade, Dan, and also Sarah. (I always liked her from the start)

I love you and always remember that,

Danielle Jamie Howell."

I was crying now.

She took her life.

I dropped the note, and I was standing in her bedroom.

With a blank expression on my face.