broken + phan AU [ON HOLD]

☕Chapter 15☕

My heart's beating like a mini drum.

~ He Likes Boys

● ● ● tw: light depression talk ● ● ●

Phil was really falling in love.

While he was driving, all he could think about are those brown eyes staring at his blue ones, those pink lips on his slightly redder ones.

And then 'Kiss Me' had to play on the background?

Talk about cheesy timing.

Dan was on his seat, anxiously biting his nails.

Phil did that, so he wasn't uncomfortable.

But it was very unsanitary.

Unsanitary my ass, you literally leave your clothes everywhere. Phil giggled.

"Fucckkk, that giggle." Dan moaned.

"Are you turned on by giggles?" Phil laughed.

Dan rolled his eyes.

"Nooo, your giggle is one of a kind, and no one understands." ( mm cheeky mel reference )

"Well, okay." Phil shrugged.

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They arrived at the hospital.

Phil had terrible memories here.

They were taking Danielle inside the hospital.

Dan and I were running, following Danielle and his dad.

We went through the hospital door, and we were inside now.

They were bringing Dani somewhere.

"Sirs, can you please take a seat there? Ms. Howell and Mr. Howell are in-"

"Yeah, okay." Dan spat.

They looked for chairs and finally found some.

Dan sat beside Phil and Phil sat beside Dan.

"It's gonna be-" Dan cut Phil off.

"No! It's not going to be okay! She nearly died Phil... she..."

"She nearly died." He said, raging, but his voice soft.

"I- uh- it's- I understand her and.., your pain I guess." Phil nodded.

"Wait? What?"

"I used to suffer from depression, I was always cutting, and I- survived a suicide attempt, well... not really, I hung myself, and... they realised I was still alive, and... yeah. Like your sister." Phil sighed.

"I- I'm sorry. I didn't mean to shou-"

"It's okay, Dan. People can release anger sometimes. It's okay, Hakuna Matata." (IT MEANS NO WORRIEES FOR THE REST OF YOUR DAYS)

"Hakuna Matata? You just turned 23." Dan smiled sadly.

"More like 10."

"Yep." Dan giggled, showing his dimple.

That dimple, call me peanut butter cause I am jelly. Of that dimple.

"Your dimple is really cute."

"Thank you. It's just the one thing I like about myself, also my eyes." He smiled wider.

"Have you not looked at a mirror before?" Phil asked.

"Nah..."

"Ditto." Phil giggled

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Phil was playing with his phone, about to beat Martyn's highscore.

"C-cu-chanksploon!" Phil fake cursed.

He was so innocent.

Nah, not really, considering Phil actually jacked off from a really, really sexuak dream.

About who? You ask? Dan Howell, obvs.

"Chank- what? Dan your friend is weird." The girl Dan was talking to said, out of the blue.

"Hm, Lyssa, wait for a minute, I need to- uhm, say something to Phil."

Dan shuffled beside Phil.

"She's flirting with me. Please help." Dan whispered on Phil's ear.

Phil smirked.

Dan shuffled back to - her name must be Lyssa - and then was talking again.

"So Dan, this might be a bit straight forward, but would you- erm... want to go out for - erm, coffee sometime?" Lyssa asked.

"Oh, I sorry... I have a boyfriend."

Who the fuck?

"It's uh, oh, Phil... his my b-boyfriend." Dan stammered, he was so flustered.

"Oh, this is embarassing, sorry for wast-"

"No, no, you weren't- Phil was too busy playing his stupid apps. It's okay." Dan forced a smile.

"Yeah, thanks for the chat." Lyssa smiled back.

Lyssa stood up and went back to her friend's seat.

"Boyfriend? Really, Dan?"

"Of course. It was the best excuse I could make up." Dan looked at Phil, clearly embarassed.

Excuse. Of course, excuse.

This 'just friends' bullshit is... bullshit.

[ can i not that this was written when i was like 14 so haha ]

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Good chapter.

NAH I WROTE IT OFC NOT

Ily bbys xx

AND ROBERT FUCKING IDK FUCKING REPLIED TO ME??

HAHAHA BRB WHILE I DIE

- ally