Barren

Decisions and Porn?

umm... welll i hope you like it...

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"What do you mean you  want to change?" Zayn asked, a bit confused as to what Harry was trying  to tell them. They were all just really tired and he didn't want this  when he didn't even have his coffee yet.

"I want to change for  Louis. I feel terrible for what I put him through and I really want to  make it up to him when he wakes up."

"But, you do realize he won't see that you've changed until he's woken up, right?"

"Isn't there like this  theory that people in a coma can hear what people say around them?"  Harry asked, looking at Zayn and Liam who just shrugged.

"I don't know, I've  never been in a coma but if it wasn't for Louis preventing me you'd be  in a coma already if he let me at you." Zayn clenched his fists and Liam  wrapped his hand around one of his fists getting Zayn to unclench them.

"Fair enough. Seriously, can you guys help me?" Harry was basically pleading with the two of them at this point.

Liam was the one to  speak this time, starting with a sigh. "If it's what you want, and you  don't hurt Louis again. We'll try to help you. But, first please cut  your freaking hair."

Harry ran his fingers through his long locks, frowning. "Louis always said he liked to pull on it."

"I don't want to know  about your sex life. Granted Louis would tell me, but I don't need it a  second time," Zayn jokingly gagged at Harry.

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"But, Zayn..." Louis  whined, "What if he wants to actually have sex with me? I need to know  what to do. I'm a seventeen years old and I'm just so clueless. Help?"

"Just because Liam  let me blow him once doesn't mean I'm the most knowledgeable. Why don't  you just watch porn or something?" He said, taking a bite of his  sandwich and chewing slowly before continuing as if they weren't talking  about porn in the middle of the lunch room. And they weren't really  whispering either. "It could help you, look at some videos that interest  you and it will go into detail about how everything works. But, don't  look into the kinky stuff because that shit gets weird and creepy fast. I  should know because Liam showed me a video once and it was nasty as  fuck. I don't understand how people can be turned on by some of that  stuff."

Louis was blushing a  little bit and couldn't help but giggle a little bit. "You know my  family shares a computer, I can't be looking up porn on there." He  picked at his fries and dipped it into his ketchup and popping it into  his mouth. "I'm not about getting caught by my mother. That would be  very embarrassing especially since my siblings eavesdrop on everything  my mom and I talk about. How do you think they found out about you know  what...."

"Shit, forgot about  that. Well, umm, what if you watch it on mine? It's password protected  so my parents or sisters can't get into it. I think they are all going  to this school thing this weekend, so we could have like have a viewing  party? You, Liam and I watching porn like it's the greatest thing in the  world."

"I am not watching porn with my two best friends!" He whisper shouted.

"What? Who's watching porn with who?" Harry chuckled as he sat down, only hearing half of their conversation.

Louis couldn't help  but blush to a deep red and didn't answer Harry's question that he had  asked because frankly he'd probably blurt out the wrong part.

"These football  players got caught in the library watching porn on one of the school  computers. Now the school is going to block Facebook, tumblr, Twitter  and all of that. Probably might even block it on their server so you  can't even get it on your phone."

"People are idiots."

"You got that right. People these days."

"Can we not talk about porn please?" Louis whispered only loud enough for Zayn and Harry to hear.

"Really? You were just talking about it with Zayn."

"He was talking and I  was pretending to listen. There's a difference." Louis spoke sticking  his tongue out at Harry making him laugh.

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"Why are we still on  this?! I asked about it a month ago!" Louis exclaimed when he arrived at  Zayn's to watch the porn he didn't want to watch.

"You said you wanted to watch." Zayn smirked at him as if he was hiding something.

"What's with the look?"

"What Iook?" He replied, clearly hiding something.

Louis just rolled his eyes. "The look you always give me when you're up to something evil. I don't like that look."

Zayn just chuckled and smirked wider when he heard Liam come down the stairs with Harry.

"Zayn! What the fuck? Why are you doing this?" He asked in a panic.

"Giving you what you want."

"This is not what I  wanted!" He shouted in a whisper. Zayn gave him a look making Louis  sigh. "I did, but not this way. I want him to notice me on my own  terms."

"But, I already  have." Harry's voice interrupted both Louis and Zayn making Louis  freeze. Zayn and Liam left the two of them to talk things over.

Louis was confused  and didn't know what to think. He thought it was a joke. "Please don't  lie to me. I can't deal with another heartbreak."

Harry frowned. "I  would never lie to you. I've only ever told you the truth. Why would you  think I'd lie to you about something like this?"

Louis shrugged and  looked to the floor, not wanting to meet Harry's eyes. "It's just I know  Zayn has been trying to get us together for a while now, and I just  don't want this to happen because of him."

Harry put his fingers  underneath Louis' chin and forced his head up. "Well, Zayn may have  said something to me about how he thinks that you and I would be perfect  together, but he never told me to do this." He leaned forward and left a  soft kiss upon Louis' lips. He pulled back to a very flushed face of  Louis.

Louis could only smile in reaction and on Monday morning they entered the school hand in hand. They were as happy as can be.

**

As Louis looked through  his memories he couldn't help but wonder why Harry ever changed. He  wanted the old Harry back. He needs to make the decision to either go or  stay, but he doesn't even know what to do anymore. He decided instead  of going through old memories, he'd watch Harry interact with his  lifeless body on the hospital bed. After all, he only has a few more  days until he really does need to decide.