First Time

Chapter 10: I Think I....

Warning: This story's title is "First Time" so you know there has to be a "first time". So yes there is some PG-13 stuff in here and if you're not comfortabe with reading it then don't read it. Enjoy!

Connor and I stood in the center of my room in dead silence. His face showed no emotion and I longed for him to say something or atleast give a facial expression. I looked down through the space between us. A cold shaky finger landed under my chin and lifted my face up. The space between us became smaller. Every inch we moved closer more butterflies arroused in the pit of my stomach. 

I could feel Connor's breath on my lips. I let out a shaky breath as his lips swept against mine barely touching them. I bit my lip trying to fight back the urge to kiss him. He put his forehead against mine and a small smirk snuck onto his lips. 

"You don't hate me anymore?" He asked and I shook my head. 

His lips brushed past mine again and then they crashed. The familiar sweet taste of his lips on mine sent me in to another world. He pulled me closer to him by my waist and I ran my fingers up through his hair. He started moving forward causing me to walk backwards and hit the edge of my desk with my lower back. He picked me up and placed me on it while he stood in between my legs never breaking our kiss. I felt his long fingers creep up the back of my shirt and chills covered every inch of me. I let out a slight moan and Connor's lips proceeded down my neck. 

"Why deny the rumors when we can make them true?" Connor asked in between each kiss he placed on my neck. He brought his face up to meet mine and smirked. I returned a smirk and nodded. 

As we began our make out again thoughts ran through my mind. At first I hated this kid and thought all he wanted from me was sex. Now, I was going to give him just that. We were both about to lose our virginity to eachother. Was this his plan all along? Did he act the ways he did just to get to this point? Is he really a virgin? Should I go along with this? All these thoughts filled my head to the point where I couldn't think at all anymore. I placed my hands on Connor's chest and pushed him away. 

"I can't." I said in one flat line.

He nodded and stepped away, "I understand. It's fine. I don't want to pressure you into anything." He paced back and forth for a moment and then grabbed his jacket. He opened my bedroom door and stepped out into the hallway closing the door behind him. 

Disappointment fell over me when he left the room. I missed and opportunity that I should've taken. I jumped off my desk and quickly ran to my door. My plan was to chase him and hopefully find him in the driveway but instead I found him behind the door. He didn't leave. 

He rushed right through the door throwing his jacket back onto my desk chair. I jumped up on his and wrapped my legs around his waist and our lips crashed hard. We walked backward until we hit my bed and fell onto it. I ran my fingers up his back and tugged at his shirt. He sat up taking it off and then fell right back on top of me. His hands ran up my body and over my breasts while removing my shirt in the process. Connor trailed a path of kisses from my mouth to my chest to my torso and then back up to my mouth again. I arched my back allowing him to unclasp and remove my bra. He kissed down my neck again and then to my breast bone. (This is so awkward to write, I can't continue. I need a moment....)

(Le moment is over)

His hands trailed down to my waist and played with the button on my jeans. As soon as the button on my jeans came undone my jeans were being tugged off my legs. I was now laying under Connor in nothing more than my lacy Victoria Secret underwear. He kissed my lips again and trailed his tongue along my bottom lip. I parted my lips for him. I crept my hands down to the belt on his jeans and began to undo it. I was suddenly stopped by Connor's hands wrapped around mine. 

"Are you absolutely sure about this?" He asked me looking right into my eyes.

I nodded slowly never taking my eyes off his, "I want you." 

His pants came off along with his boxers and he somehow slipped my underwear off at the same time. I opened my legs up more allowing him room to enter. Once he did pain struck me. I winced and Connor stopped. 

"I'm sorry." He said.

"It's fine." I replied.

He went in again and the pain was worse. 

"If I'm hurting you Alex then...."

"No, it's fine."

"Is this supposed to be this awkward?" Connor asked me and I chuckled. 

"I don't know."

He entered me for the third time and a different feeling swam through me. It was a feeling of pure bliss. Something I couldn't control. I wanted more of it and he was giving me more than I could handle. 

(I'm not writing anymore detail because it's awkward.)

Connor rolled off me. We both lied on our backs breathing heavily. I rolled over onto my side and rested my head on his chest. I kissed his bare chest gently and then looked up at him. 

"I don't hate you anymore because..."

"Because why?" He questioned.

"Because I....I think I..."

"What? Just say it." He pushed.

"I think I lo..."

"I think I love you too." He said kissing my forehead. "Is that what you wanted to say?" He asked. 

I nodded with a smile, "Yes, I think I love you." 

A/N: This was beyond the most awkward thing I have ever written in my entire career of writing fanfiction! Tip to self: Do not write fanfictions about losing virginity when you find it awkward to write. Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this little update. I think I'll have one or two more chapters! Also, comment on if you want me to write another Connor fic or a Riley or if I should update an old one that I never finished! Toodles!