My brothers best friend

You give me butterflies

Ashton POV
I stormed out hearing Ari yell my name. I couldn't bare looking at her. I freakin' love her and she leaves me yet again. It feels as though she gave me my heart back and ripped it right out again.

Ari Clifford is my first and only love. Okay, I've had sex with other girls and had serious relationships but none were like the one I had with Ari. She made my heart beat, butterflies fly in my stomach and my cheeks blush. No moment was I ever not thinking of her.

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I was walking by my hotel when someone grabbed my arm. It was a soft grasp and a smell of sweet, cherries blew around me.

I knew the smell and the grip.

"Ashton," she breathed. "Look at me." She begged as I spun around to meet Ari's pain filled eyes staring into mine.

"Ari, go home." I told her pulling my arm back.

"No, I don't have a home without you Ashton! You are my home, my only home. I fucking love you! Edward doesn't matter anymore, we're over. I choose you!" She yelled the last part as I walked away.

"Don't!" I yelled turning around my fist clenched. "Don't say you love me! You don't and I fucking know it. Michael knows best right? You moved on, so stay with him. I wouldn't want to be with a slut anyway!" I spat out of anger.

She looked pained. "If that's what you want?" She asked holding back tears.

"It is," I said no regret toning my voice. "You're way to crazy for me! You're fucked up and I can't deal with that. I can't deal with you!"

After what I said she nodded and began walking off holding her cheeks in her hands.

What I said hurt her, no denying it. I couldn't let her back in my life. I would loose Michael and this whole band. I couldn't do that, this is my life no matter how much I love her.

Besides, I've been messaging a girl via DMs on Twitter. She's called Zara, she's famous and an amazing girl. I'm sure everyone knows her. She likes me, she told me, I'm going to meet her in Stockholm in two weeks. She's on tour there at the same time as us boys. We'll be over the news papers and magazines and Ari will know I'm over her. Well, she'll think that anyway.

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Ari POV
What he said broke me, I'm not going to lie. Edward struggles with me as much as it is. I can't believe Ashton would say he can't handle me, he's the only one who can calm me down.

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I arrived back home and walked in after cleaning myself up. Do I tell Edward what happened or lie?

"Baby, they took me back home and I waited for you. I'm so sorry!" Edward stood up and walked over to me slowly.

"No, I'm sorry. I'm a bitch and I can't believe I nearly lost you." I cried.

He came over and pulled me into his chest as I cried. I can't loose him, I may not love him the way I should but I do love him.

"You'll never loose me." He whispered. "Let's move our wedding date." He said randomly.

"What!? I thought we were okay now!?" I pulled away looking at him.

"I mean forwards Ari, let's move our wedding forward. We will get married in two weeks." He smiled pecking my cheek.

"Can we do that?"

"They've had a cancellation, I was going to suggest it later on tonight but instead I booked it. It'll be better baby, please?"

"Okay." I nodded.

I felt so bad. I was lying to him, he thought I chose him when I chose Ashton. He's my back up plan, my last resort, my recovery.

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I was in bed replaying today's events over and over in my head. Was I not good enough for Edward, surely I'm not. I'm lying to him. Why is my life so fucked up?

I need a new life, a new love and a new memory.

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Ashton POV
"Yeah I know baby." I whispered into the phone hoping the boys didn't hear me.

"I miss our late night conversations, where've you been?" Zara asked I could imagine a cute pout on her playful lips right now.

"Practicing with the boys, I'm sorry. How's your tour going?"

"It's good, summertime ball was amazing. I didn't meet Zayn but that's okay, I wanted to meet little mix and sigala anyway. Maybe I'll do a song with them one day." She laughed at her own suggestion.

"Anythings possible." I whispered.

"What? Like you finally get up off your lazy ass and asking me out?"

"Asking out how?"

"Ask me to be your girlfriend ash, we know it'll happen when we meet. We know what we look like and our talents so why not?"

She had a valid point. One thing she was missing out was, I was madly, deeply, crazily, in love with someone else.

"Zara I," I began but she cut me off.

"Don't actually like me like that, that's fine. I'll just go." She huffed.

"No, no Zara Larson don't go anywhere!" I yelled loudly.

Suddenly all three boys were in my room staring at me with wide eyes and mouth agape. Great! Fucking perfect.

"Zara, will you be my girlfriend?" I asked judging the boys mood.

"Yes!" She screamed giggling wildly.

Luke was shocked but fairly pleased with my decision. Calum looked happy as fuck and Michael looked really pissed off.

"Great!" I lied with fake enthusiasm. "But I need to go now babe, I'll speak to you tomorrow." I promised.

"Bye!" She cheered hanging up.

"What the fuck!?" Michael yelled as soon as I put the phone down. "You're in love with my sister, don't drag an innocent girl into this."

"Bro, he has too. They're bringing the wedding forward, nothing's going to happen between them now." Luke told him.

"They are?" I asked shocked.

"Yeah, two weeks from now." Calum mumbled.

"Well shit." I huffed slamming my phone on my bed.

"Zara Larson, she's an amazing girl, one of the best. Don't let her down bro." Michael smiled more kindly.

"I will, I'll bring her as my plus one." I smiled.

"You don't have a plus one, only Mike does." Luke reminded me.

"Have mine man, I'll find some girl at the after party. Probably a bridesmaid." I laughed at his reply.

"Thanks Mike, you're a good mate."

"That I am." He agreed smiling widely to himself.