Stupid Fangirl Problems

Disappear

Sometimes (like right now) I want to just fall of the face of the earth. I just read an Ivan x Reader where I was dead and he fell in love with this girl name Chu-Yan (I think O.o) and now I'm legit upset. I feel like my heart has just been ripped from my body and I watch as a girl who I now hate (and who isn't real) stomp on it as she makes-out with the boy (who *hic* IS REAL IN MY HEART!) I absolutely love. I don't know if any of you have this problem, but I'm seriously hurting right now. It's noon and I haven't even gotten out of bed yet. ;-; Imma mess...