8. Warning this part may be triggering for some.
I decide its time to say hello to a little friend ive not seen in a while...
I go into the bathroom and search for a razor...
I search through the cupboards and find one... I slide it against my wrists a few times, letting the blood seep out of my wrists... Soon after i start to wash my arms to hide any of the blood
*knock knock*
frank walks in and sees everything...
"F-frank..." I whisper while i cry, i collapse in his arms in tears
"What is wrong with me!?" I shout and cry more, "nothing, nothing is wrong with you Damon. Trust me ive done this before okay, i saw the marks earlier and was worried so i came up" he says and kisses my head while i sob into his chest
"Its okay Dee, lets clean you up, your sleeping in my bed tonight" he helps me up and once again kisses my head
I clean my arms and Frank hides the razors somewhere i cant find them, we leave the bathroom and head to our room...
"I wont tell Gee or Mikey about this okay?" He says and i nod, we walk in our room and i get in Franks bed with him
"Night Dee, i love you..." Frankie whispers and kisses me "i love you too Frankie" i whisper back, we cuddle until we fall asleep
~~~~ (skip to morning)
I wake up to an empty bed... "F-Frankie...?" I wince out while I open my eyes. I notice he isn't the room so I head downstairs to see if he is there
I walk into the kitchen and he is sat eating cereal talking to Gee...
"Morning..." I say looking at the floor and sitting on a stool, I throw my head on the table and sulk
"Hey you okay?" Frank asks "yeah fine" I say and trace my cuts with my fingers "come over here..." He says getting up and walking to the living room
I get up and follow him... "What..." I ask "I'm showing you round school today remember?, also what's wrong?" He asks
"Nothing" I reply and trace my cuts again, "I've noticed you trace your wrist if you are lying" well shit
"Is it because me and Gee were talking? Did you think something of it?" He asks and hold my hands
"Uhh... Yeah..." I say, I can't lie... I was jealous of them having a tiny conversation
"I'm sorry, I'm stupid and get jealous over someone I'm just crushing on, you don't like me back so..." I blurt out and he looks hurt
"I do like you back Damon, you was the one who said we need to take it slow" he replies
"Oh, right..." I say awkwardly "I'm going upstairs to get changed into my clothes for school..."
He nods and I run upstairs to get changed, I obviously also put my eyeliner on and a shit ton of bracelets (outfit above)
"You ready yet!" Frank shouts from downstairs "yeah!" I reply and leave our room
"Guys I'm trying to sleep!!!" Mikey shouts in a sleepy tone but I just laugh
I walk downstairs and we leave the house and get in the car
"You can drive?" I ask getting in the passenger seat "yeah" he replies smiling
"So I know who's going to be driving me to school"
"How long of school do you have left?, you are in year 11 now so you should be leaving soon" he says and starts driving
"Well Not for a while, I've only just joined year 11 so depending on when I do my tests, but now I'm in the band I guess I have nothing to worry about because I can drop out and I need to chose my options over here" I say sorting my school bag out
"Ah yeah, I dropped out when I was 14, I literally just stopped going and I ran away from home and found the lads" he says but I didn't question...
