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"I know too well of depression... Honestly I'm the best person for you to come to about this stuff" he says and we take a seat
He starts asking questions
"What's always on your mind?"
"Suicide, self harm or Frank..."
"Wrists?"
I show him my wrists and he sighs "please try not to do it" he knows it's not easy
"You hid the razors?" Frank nods
"Depression pills don't work, do you also have anxiety too?" I nod
"Right, your in the band now?" I nod once again "that will help your anxiety so that's a start, with depression, well that's harder to get rid off..."
"Maybe write some songs about your problems, draw what's on your mind, turn music up so loud you can't think" he says and this is what I do, but in school I can't
"I do that, but in school I can't" I reply "let me write a letter to your school, I will tell them you have permission to leave the classroom to go to a music room or art room and use your earphones in class whenever you need, okay?" He asks and I nod
"I hope I'm helping" he says and starts writing the note "Frank can you pass this to the staff...? I'm too scared..." I say awkwardly like a coward
"Sure, let's hope we can fix your proble- Damon when was the last time you ate" "uhh at school..." I say and trace my cuts, STOP!DAMON PLEASE
"Don't lie, when was the last time you ate" "4 days ago..." "Shit, you need to eat" Frank says "Josh will make him food, we will also help with this problem but it will be done soon, right now we need to focus on depression and anxiety, someone like you, your age, you shouldn't have this stuff..." Tyler says looking down
"I will kind of be your therapist from now on, but I will not share anything with anyone even if it involves you hurting yourself or others if you don't want me to tell them" he says and I smile
"Thanks, I really need this help" Josh passes me a sandwich "uhh, I can't..." I accidentally say out loud
"Please Damon for me" Frankie says and I take a bite and almost throw up, I take a few more bites but it takes me 10 mins to finish the sandwich...
"We will go now, thanks for everything. We will be back in about 2 days" Frank says "bye"
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"We are back" I say and everyone runs to the door almost falling over and stumbling on the way "uhh?" I say confused
"They are drunk" Frank says and face palms "oh, can I have some" I ask and Frank looks shocked "you drink at your age??"
I nod and grab 2 cans from the fridge and throw one to Frank
"Cheers" we clank bottles and drink. I used to drink when I was at the orphanage, it helped take my mind of things
I would often take sleeping pills if I was thinking bad thoughts so I could fall asleep
"I'm offf too slleeep..." I say after finishing my 5th can
I stumble up the stairs and sleep in my clothes because I was knock out as soon as I laid on the bed...
