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ten | christmas night sadness

So I was listening to this sad song while I was writing this chapter... You can listen to it while you read it if you want.

*EDIT* SIKE I found a sadder song to make you all cry so you can ride on this boat of feels along with everyone who already joined ;-;

Toradora - Lost my Pieces - Original Version

T E N

It was finally Christmas and this meant a magical night for you and your boyfriend, Dazai. You dressed formally as possible and waited for Dazai to pick you up. The doorbell rang as your heart skipped a beat. He was here! You rushed downstairs and opened the door to reveal Dazai with a single rose and a present.

"Merry Christmas, (F/N) chan." he smiled. You grinned wildly as you plunged into his arms. He handed over the present to you.

"Here, open it."

You took the present as you began to unwrap the present to reveal a small box. Inside the box was 2 gold bracelets with a only a half of a heart charms on each one. Dazai took one and put his on his bracelet as he took another one and put it around your wrist. He brought the charm closer, making the half hearts click together into a full heart.

"I love it. This is so cute!" you cheered as you wrapped your arms around his neck into a tight hug. "I'm still working on your present."

"Oh, 'working' you say? Well I'll be excited to see what you made me~" he kissed your forehead as the two of you walked in the snowy streets with his hand clasped with yours.

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You strolled in the night sky with the snowflakes slowly falling down onto your hair and on your shoulders. You puffed out your hot breath, leaving a white cloud in the air as you watched it evaporate. You hugged the box close to your chest, feeling butterflies in your stomach. After the fun date you and Dazai had together, he pulled you into a tight and passionate hug as he kissed your forehead and saying, 'I love you' before saying goodbye.

And now you were standing in front of his house with a present you made for him clutched to your chest like it was a precious treasure. You knocked on the door 3 times, but there wasn't any answer so you took a deep breath as you opened the door. And surprisingly, it was open. Normally, it was locked but it was a little strange that it was unlocked. But you shrugged as you tiptoed into the house and headed upstairs. The hallway was pretty dim, so you couldn't see a thing, but you could see that under Dazai's door of his room was a little brighter than in the hallway. As you were about to reach the door knob, you took a deep breath and swung opened the door.

And you could not believe what you saw in front of you.

There was a familiar girl who was dressed in a Santa dress with her Santa hat and she was sitting on top of shirtless Dazai. You felt everything around you slowly collapse as you felt your vision blur and your hearing started to fade as well.

An evil smirk spread across Hanako's face as she spoke, "Whoopies~ We've been caught~"

You stood there very still, staring at Dazai with a shocked expression. 

"(F-F/N), this isn't what it looks like." Dazai started. You couldn't hear anymore. You couldn't see his face clearly. Your vision was blurry and you lost your train of thoughts. 

"Please, believe me-"

Your heart beating so fast and furious, you grabbed the nearest cup of water that was on his desk as you splashed his face with it and threw the cup into his eyes. You stomped out of the room, still holding the present close to you, still pretending it was a treasure, despite what you just saw.

"(F/N) chan!! WAIT!!" Dazai called and hopped out of the bed and quickly got his coat as he dashed out of his house, chasing you. You didn't go that far because you were slowly walking feeling cheated on but you stopped when you felt your wrist being grabbed by behind. You turned around, tears flying out your eyes, your vision still blurry. But through the blurriness, you recognized that shadow anywhere.

"(F/N) chan, I'm-" Dazai started but you cut him off. 

"Don't call me 'chan' anymore." You ordered in a razor sharp tone. You had it. You snapped. You were done.

"And here-" you shoved the beautifully wrapped present to his chest. "Happy Merry fucking Christmas. Enjoy fucking your new girlfriend." Without looking at your ex-boyfriend, you turned around leaving him in the cold dark street, holding your present you especially made for him, leaving the two of you broken hearted on a Christmas night.

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Once you finally arrived home, you immediately went straight up to your room and plopped onto your bed without even bothering to take a shower, let alone taking your winter coat off. You pulled your phone out of your pocket of your coat as you squinted your eyes from the sudden flash from the device. All this time you had your phone on silent because you were out with Dazai- your ex now. You got at least 35 text messages from him but you ignored it and kept scrolling to the bottom until something caught your eyes. You missed 9 incoming calls.

Suddenly, the phone buzzed and the screen darkened with clear white fonts reading, 'Incoming call from Walking Human Espresso'.

It was Chuuya.

He was trying to call to you all this time.

You pressed the green button, putting your phone pressed tightly against your ear, waiting for his voice to embrace you. And it came immediately.

"I'm so glad you picked up, (F/N). You got me so worried! This is my tenth time calling you!" Chuuya scolded from the other side and you couldn't help but to smile.

"Well, I just wanted to call you to say Merry Christmas. Hope your having a great one there." His soft tone swam into your ears and you felt so glad that you got to hear his voice.

"H-Hello? (F/N)? Are you even there???" Chuuya's voice started to panic. He was worried about you again.

"C-Chuuya." You croaked.

"You're there! What is it, (F/N)?"

That's when you lost it. Tears poured out of your eyes as you tried your best to keep your snivels tight in your chest. You didn't want him to know that you were crying because you knew he would tease you nonstop about it. Thankfully, you didn't make any noises.

"I miss you... I really really miss you." You said, having a lump in your throat.

Chuuya was taken back a bit for a sudden straightforward comment. You would rarely say stuff like that and he couldn't help but to blush slightly. But he made a small smile and answered back. "Yeah. I really really miss you too, (F/N)."

Now you couldn't hold it anymore. You started to choke in tears and snivel up. You started to hiccup as you tried your best to produce the last few sentences, but it only came up in a cry for help.

Chuuya's eyes widened as he felt his anger rise. He knew you were crying on the other end of the line. Why would you be crying on Christmas? All these unanswered questions surfaced up in his mind as his heart started beating faster. His mind swirling with confusion and worry for you.

"(F/N)? (F/N), (F/N). What's wrong? Tell me what happened." His voice was strong, like a concrete block. 

Making the last few efforts in a high pitched voice that kept getting higher and higher than the last as you squeaked out the words that were bottled up inside you. "Dazai-"

Beep. Beep. Beep.

You looked at your phone to see that the landline was too busy and the distance between you two were very far so you lost connection with Chuuya's voice. Your heart sank as you blinked away your hot tears that were streaming down your face endlessly. All that was left in your possession was the sound of your sobs and the unexistance of Chuuya's comforting words without here to help you...