I used to know this guy.
I hate that sentence.
I hate it because the key word is 'used'.
I used to hate him.
But he loved me, or so he said.
I hated him because I was scared of love and told him we were too young to love.
I was so mean to him.
You don't even understand.
I made him feel so small and I made him cry more times than I can count on my hands.
We dated once though.
He cheated on me.
I hated him more.
I didn't realize it was my fault.
Don't pity me and think 'what a poor girl, feeling like it's her fault for his mistakes' Because it was my fault.
I know that it's my fault, because he told one of my guy friends, 'don't date her, she is horrid.'.
He told my friend that it was my fault and I realized it kinda was.
I noticed him a lot more and realized my growing crush on him.
I saw him happy and I saw him smile.
And I saw that he was never the one that lost, but I was.
I lost an amazing guy and I regret it.
No, I'm not depressed about it, but I do regret it.
I wish I wasn't so scared and I just went up to him and told him I was sorry, but I can't, because I'm worried that he'll be my friend again and I'll break him.
Not only that, but I worry that I'll fall for him more than I already have.
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rant, memories, and thank you's.
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