Antidote

97 | the last sentiment of the blue poetess

Twelve months ago,
I tried desperately to
silence the waves
crashing through
the hopeless sea,
causing trouble
inside my mind
the thought itself I
could not bear
as I was about to
fall deeper
deeper down the ocean
Oh god,
I was alone
afraid that I might wander
through the darkest corners
all alone
that I may never
and would never
kill the villains
within; but
you came
you came to me
and hardly could I
forget how you
walked with me
through the hurricane,
fought against
the tumultuous wind,
assuaged my fears
and guided me with hope,
gave me a rope
for me to hold on to
and indescribably
you,
made me feel less alone
you,
told me once, nay—
a hundred times
you'll walk with me
until the very end,
even if we
can never find heaven,
we'll walk through
hell together.

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"Antidote" has finally come to an end and this will be my last piece.

Allow me to express my most profound gratitude to the good-hearted people I met in Wattpad, to my ever-supportive internet friends, to the ones who have been so kind and generous to me from the start and to the Pensive Poetry Club where I get to discover the knack I quite have in poetry writing, develop my skills, and most especially meet beautiful souls whose works are considered pieces of art.

I'm beyond thankful for the friendship and support you've given me. I would like to personally thank @MissAlmostGrown @DannyCepul @-RoseByAnotherName- @KHResurreccion for I have learned a lot from you guys really.

I'd also like to thank @caribbeans @awesomeATC @kenny8502 @redvelvet8975 @wishonchocolates @AnkuzG @Ubuntu_ @depressednstressed @MsDanniA @thatbarista @TAHinsonE84 @wormwithnoname @revengeavenue @Aerimeme @FetchingPenumbra @SilentPoet12 @vdoesstuff @Sophiasaur @WriterUntilInfinity for the feedbacks and support from the very beginning (I started this book just this year, April 10 2016 and never did I expect so much that I could reach the Hot List category in Poetry section)

I'm just a young girl, at the age of 17, whose life is filled with mere cracks; who loves crafting the words she failed to say and the words they failed to hear. I think it's safe to say that having an outlet or an instrument to our self-expression is indeed very helpful. I'm very much happy to have such amazing internet friends in WP to whom I could vent out my emotions and freely share my not-so-interesting lifestory with without being judged. In fact, it's what we wanted after all — not to be heard but to be listened to, not to be judged but to be understood — so I'm very fortunate that I have you @muazuboi @allikat15 @jxstmysxlf @Jean_Di @Resserell @TaraKrajinovic @aMisanthropiCgirl @-productofsociety @Amatysis786 thank you for motivating me to keep going. ♥

I'm sorry for being so sentimental here, I just couldn't believe that I've actually made a book — well a collection of poems to be exact — and now I'm ending it with the 97th poem. Ghaaaad. Thank you so much! ♥♥♥

P.S. I'm still having an internal debate whether I should publish another poetry book or not. Help me decide, I still got loads of drafts here but I'm not quite sure about posting them.

- Clarice V.