last time.

chapter 20

sorry guys in I haven't updated in forever, I started playing sports and music and I'm not a DJ to and a dancer and I got busy so I'll start updating more now :)

garins POV,

" DO U RELIZE HOW MUCH SHIT I WENT THROUGH... 4 YEARS IT TOOK ME 4 YEARS TO FINNALY LET GO OF YOU... I TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE 34 FAILED ATTEMPTS HAVE U EVEN LOOKED AT MY WRISTS AT ALL... U SENT ME TO HELL AND BACK. I WAZ SO FUCKEN IN LOVE WITH YOU THAT I ACTULLY LET U IN AFTER MY HEART WAZ ALREADY BROKEN. U WERE MY EVERYTHING BUT U DIDT GIVE A DAMN DID U... NO IF U DID U WOULD HAVE TALKED TO ME NO MATTER HOW MUCH IT HURT. I SAT THERE HOURS AND HOURS A DAY JUST STAREING AT MY PHONE WAITING FOR THAT ONE DAY U WOULD REPLY. U DONT RELIZE. I WENT TO THEREPY I WENT TO A SUICIDE PROBLE SHIT CAMP TALKING THEROPY SHIT. u didt give a damn. o

so what makes me think u do now."

hearing her say that just broke me. she was right. I did do that. wow... I feel like a douch..

"look I'm sorry okay.... I'm sorry I should t have done that OK I just couldn't take not seeing you....you living 8 hours away killed me I cryed everyday every night.... nothing made me happy but you..."

"then what the fuck happens. what happens to never giving up, what happens to our song.... do u even remember it,

"of course I do."

"then wut is it,"

"ummmm... "

"2 WORDS, FUCK. YOU"

this ass whole didn't even remember our song.... I still listim to that song.  I walked up staires and found a room and slammed the door and got my beats outta my bag and out them on and turned on the song....

" And I'd give up forever to touch you

'Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't wanna go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

When sooner or later it's over

I just don't wanna miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me."

I felt the tears coming and this time I did stop them I just sat there...and cried, and cried, and that's when I thought no it.... I ran to the bathroom and found a Razer and any pills I could find, ran back in the room and popped pills as i cut... felling the razor blade cut a crossed my skin felt like home... I haven't done this is forever, and doing it brings back everything...... after 20 min of doing that watching the blood run down my arm like water out of a sink someone knocked on the door.

"what do you want"

ian walked in and I know he knew already what had happend...

"ELIZABETH WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!!!!!!!!"

"it's nothing ian"

"ITS NOTHING IAN MY ASS...GARIN!!!!!!!!!!! GET IN HERE NOW!!!!!!!

garin walked in and saw me and my wrist and the blood on Ian and the floor... the empty pill bottles and he had no expression at all... just a blank face like he always does.

"I'll call an ambulance"

ian just looked at me and he was crying I swear.... I took my hand on the side that wasn't cut up and wiped his tears

"little bro. if this is how it ends I'm sorry I'm not the best role model for you.... pleas live your life, make it the best don't do what I did.... your young go party meet a girl settle down,  and live life, I love you bro,

"pleas don't pleas stay sis I need you, you Cant leave me not yet at least, your the only person I trust, I can't lose my best friend,"

" I'm sorry I really am..."

I felt myself drifting into darkness this is it. no more fails. I'm done

IANS P,O,V,

by the time then paramedics got there i knew it was to late..... my sjsster, my best friend, just died in my arms,

and that's the end thank you soooo much for reading I'm starting another story I hope you guys will like it :)