But why? // minizerk ff

8

Simons POV

Me and josh are sitting on the sofa watching some Netflix, we both came to an agreement on 'orange is the new black' as we both found it hilarious. I look over my shoulder to see josh glarin at me with his big round puppy dog eyes..... but why? My heart starts pounding I must look like a damn mess, nobody's ever made me feel this way before, The way his hair flops down on his head so perfectly makes me want to jump into his arms and squeez him to death.... but he's not get
"Ummm Simon? Would you ummmm wanna cuddle?" Josh says shyly, almost ashamed
"Fuck yeah" I blurt out, sorta destroying the loving, sentimental moment we have going on. I pull josh into my arms so we are cuddling before I hear something I never thought is hear
"No Simon, in the daddy... I cuddle you" many things went though my mind, mainly 'WTF' but also 'awwww' I loved josh so much but he will never know because I will NEVER tell him how I feel, they way my feelings get muddled up, the way I want to cry when I see him with other people... but I've only known him personally for like 18 hours... idk I don't maths but Jc why is life so complicated
"Simon, you know you said about me sleeping in the same bed as you?" Josh stated
"Yeah, you don't have to if you don't want to" I said knowing that he obviously had no feelings for me
"No Simon, I was wondering when you wanted to get going to bed? It's 3 am" josh said warmly almost welcoming me, I snuggle a little closer towards his chest so I can hear his breathing and I reply
"When do you want to? I was just getting comfy"
"Whenever you feel like it tbh si, we can always watch Netflix in bed? Can't we?" Josh said suggesting we betting get going
"Okay lets go en" I lead josh up the states towards my vast room, recoding equipment scattered all over the floor, littering every inch of the room
"Sorry about the mess... I wasn't expecting visitors" I say shyly as I catch josh laughing when his eyes land on my dirty boxers on the floor from last Wednesday.
We both hear some muffled laughing going on downstairs as I shout
"JJ YOU HOME YET YER WANKER?" And a probably drunk jj replies with
"FUck yE bUDdY, DonT WOrRy I WoNt KiLL tHe ViBe!" He shouts loudly, filling the whole house with his loud remarks
"You kinda did" I mutter to myself quietly, jj was my best friend sure, but he could never know I was gay.... or could he? I don't know jfc... anyway josh
"You wanna go into bed?" I say to josh who is standing their awkwardly observing my pants
"Thought you would never ask minter" he says...... shit i should probably turn around he's about to get changed... shit yeah. I turn around to face the basic white wall whilst my crush is getting changed behind me... great, what is life?
"Done si" I hear come from behind me. He was wearing some grey joggers and no top, he had a 'IN the works' chest going on and GOD I loved it...
"You turn now joshy" I say and observe him turn around. I take my top of and grab some jogger like things and put them on
"You can turn around now!" I say quite loudly, I cover my mouth hoping jj won't think anything bad is going on, we both seem to laugh it off as josh runs his eyes up and down my slim, lanky body... I know I'm not perfect so I hope he doesn't do a runner like in the films
"Should we get in the bed and watch Netflix?" I gesture pointing at the double bed I had. It wasn't the most comfortable of beds but it's where I down any of my free time
"Ye sure" he jumps on my bed as we scroll through Netflix and find something that once again looked mildly interesting until I decide to say something
"Josh... can I fall asleep with you in my arms.. for umm... coping reasons" I stutter, hoping he can't see me going a lovely shade of pink
"Simon.. you don't even need to ask" he says holding me in his arms. I place my head on his chest hearing his breathing pattern and sinking mine with it also.
"I love you Simon" I hear come from his mouth as he turns off the tv and starts to close his eyes ominously
"I love you two josh" I reply, closing my eyelids ready for tomorrow.

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