(miya's p.o.v)
I finally made it to the park and Carl was already there, suprisingly.
"Hey," I said trying to catch my breathe.
"Hi," he quietly, and awkwardly, said.
"I shouldn't have just left like that yesterday. I'm sorry. You deserve better than that," I finally caught my breathe and motioned for him to sit down on one of the benches. He did and I sat down next to him.
"No, that's exactly what I deserved for hurting you," he said, looking down to the ground.
"Shut up. Just let me open up my feelings to you. Okay?"
He nodded and looked me in the eyes.
"I moved here because people home, close friends of mine, accused me of being a lesbian because I had never had a boyfriend. I thought it was ridiculous because, at the time, we were only 14. I started getting threatening texts and people would shove me in the hallways and stuff like that. One day, when I was walking home, this group of boys ganged up on me and they started... They started touching me and when I would pull away, they would beat me." I stopped talking for just a moment to contain myself.
"When I told my parents... They didn't care. They just shrugged it off. That really suprised me because they were so protective over me. They wouldn't let me eat certain foods, listen to certain music, they would go through my phone everyday to make sure I wasn't doing something I wasn't supposed to. They always seemed to care what I was up to and what was happening to me, but they didn't. They didn't give a shit that I was being harrassed or bullied. So, I moved here with my sister. And ever since, I've felt loved for the first time in my life since Kate moved away."
I've never told any of that to anyone, not even Kate. She knew about the overprotective part, but not the rest.
I looked down, remembering my life back home.
Carl grabbed my hand and squeezed. I looked up and saw the sadness in his eyes.
"When I saw Dominique on top of you, I started to believe that all of that love was a lie. But, I was wrong because now I know that you will never to anything to hurt me. And I'm sorry for hurting you." He scooted closer, wrapping his arm around me and letting me rest my head on his shoulder.
"I'm so sorry," he said, rubbing my arm as comfort.
"I've never told that to anyone, Carl. Not even Kate," I lifted my eyes up and stared into his. I felt so close to him in that moment, so secure. Like I could do the dumbest shit and he wouldn't judge me for it.
He leaned in keeping his eyes on me and pressed his lips against mine. I gently grabbed his neck, kissing him back.
"I love you," he said as he softly pulled away.
"I love you, Carl," I said back while I stared deep into his ocean blue eyes.
"I will never let anything bad happen to you. I won't let anyone hurt you, I promise," he held my hand and leaned his forehead on mine.
"I know you won't, because you're Carl Gallagher," I pecked his nose, happy to be back in his arms, comfort, and love.
"You wanna get out of here," he pulled away and stood up.
"We can go to my place," I said as I stood up behind him. He smiled back and we started walking back to my house.
"I was afraid I'd lose you," Carl said, wrapping his arm around my waist. "I couldn't sleep last night at the thought of it.
I smirked, "I couldn't sleep either, the thought of me breaking your heart kept me up all night."
He chuckled and rested his head on mine. "Just to let you know, no matter what, I'll never leave you. I love you too much."
I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed his cheek. "Same goes for you. You're my everything." He stopped walking and smirked at me. He bit his lip and picked me up bridal style. I couldn't help but giggle.
He carried me the rest of the way to my house. He was being really cheesey, but I liked it. He put me down once we got inside.
I took my jacket and bookbag off and laid it on the couch.
"Hey, you're wearing my shirt," Carl said, examining the t-shirt.
"I wore it to bed last night," I said tugging on the bottom of it.
Carl smiled really big, "You should wear my shirts more often, they look good on you."
I blushed and pushed a piece of hair behind my ear. He got closer and held my chin up. He softly pressed his lips against mine. Then, he wrapped his hands around my back thighs, telling me to jump. I did and wrapped my legs around his waist.
He carefully walked up the steps, not removing his lips from mine. We finally made it to my bedroom and we plopped on the bed. I tugged at his shirt and he sat up to pull it off. He leaned back down, started to suck on my neck. I let out a small moan.
"Carl, hey, take it easy babe," I whispered. He must not of heard me because he then pulled off my shirt and continued to leave small hickies down my body. He then pulled off his pants and then looked to me for permission.
I waited a moment, realizing that this would be our first time together.
I quickly nodded my head and he gently pulled down my pants.
He gently slid into me amd slowly started grinding. He rested his head between my shoulder and neck and continued to kiss. I tried hard not to let out any little moans, but I couldn't help it.
At first it hurt, but then the pain turned into something... beautiful. When I did it with Ash, I didn't feel anything. But doing it with Carl, made it feel amazing. I fell in love with him more every second.
He lifted his head up and looked me in the eyes. I grabbed his neck and kissed him passionately.
We finally finished and he laid down on his back. We stared up at the ceiling for a moment in silence.
"Wow," I said. "That was... amazing."
"Yeah," Carl agreed. "Is that what it was like with, um... With Ash?"
I shook my head, "Honestly, no. With him it didn't feel good at all. It felt like shoving a tampon up there."
He couldn't help but laugh and I laughed along with him.
"What's the difference now," he asked as we both turned on our sides, now facing eachother.
"I wasn't with someone I loved, but this timeI was," I looked into his beautiful blue eyes.
He rested his hand on my cheek.
"You're so fucking beautiful. How did I ever get so damn lucky?"
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This ending is trash and i'm terrible at writing smut, so sorry if its terrible lol.
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