NCT Oneshots

Surprise!

  Jeno knows it's childish of him to be pouting on his birthday, especially when the rest of the dream team are trying their best to make his birthday the best they can. They told him to stay in his room so they could decorate and get the cake and his presents ready. He rolled his eyes as Minhyung and Donghyuck walked away telling him that their present was great, but Renjun and Chenle's was the best (and they were upset that they didn't think of it first.) and he'd be super happy when he saw it. He doesn't know if he should be scared or not, but he tries to have faith in his friends and imagine that they're not plotting his death and takes a deep breath. No matter how much he tries to have faith, all he can think about is the fact that his friends are probably planning where they're going to hide his dead body after they  murder   him. He knows it's bound to come, especially if it's Renjun who supposedly has the best present. 

     To say Jeno isn't terrified would be the same as saying that Minhyung isn't helplessly in love with Donghyuck; a blatant lie. It's even harder when Renjun is the person that knows Jeno the most and understands everything Jeno feels right now. Jeno wouldn't like to say that he's ungrateful for his friends trying to cheer him up, it's just that nobody does that better than Jaemin (whom he's not-so-secretly in love with, but Jaemin is quite oblivious and can't tell the difference which Jeno finds both a relief and a pain) who isn't here at the moment. Actually, Jeno doesn't know when Jaemin will be back which is concerning and makes Jeno worry even more. He knows he shouldn't be sulking in his room on his birthday thinking of Jaemin, but his mind automatically goes straight to the beautiful jet black haired boy. When he closes his eyes to clear his mind all he can see is a sharp nose; soft, gentle eyes; and a smile that's been missing for a while ('five months to be exact' Jeno whispers to himself as he continues to think of the boy he shouldn't be thinking of). 

     Jaemin's been getting treatment for his back injury, and Jeno knows that which is why he feels even guiltier every time he has selfish thoughts of missing the beautiful boy. He feels guilty every time he finds himself rewatching interviews just so he can see Jaemin again, feels even guiltier every time he dreams of him being right next to him like always. He can't help but to feel guilty about the things he's done to cope with the loss of his  crush  best friend that he  loves  misses so much, but those moments of guilt are nothing compared to the vivid dreams he has of Jaemin next to him, dreams of Jaemin singing and dancing again, dreams of Jaemin laughing because Jeno actually said something funny, dreams of Jaemin's smile and the way he's always so kind, dreams of Jaemin comforting him when needed, dreams of Jaemin slyly wrapping his arms around Jeno when they're trying to sleep at night, dreams of Jaemin sneakily placing his hand on Jeno's thighs to get his attention, dreams of Jaemin lacing their hands together in the car on the ride home, dreams of Jaemin lacing his fingers into Jeno's hair and kissing him- 

     Jeno quickly shakes that thought out of his head. He and Jaemin are friends and, sadly, only that. That's all they'll ever be, and despite how depressing that sounds, Jeno's happy to have Jaemin in his life even if it's only as his best friend. Sure, he'll still love the boy even when Jaemin grows up and gets married. He'll gladly be his best man if asked, and pretend to be happy for Jaemin only to cry when he gets home. He'll be there with Jaemin through everything, even when Jaemin gets annoyed with him. He's just upset that today is his seventeenth birthday and the only person he wants here won't be able to be with him.

     And Jeno feels guilty again because Jaemin's injured, he's probably in pain, and here Jeno is crying about how he won't be able to see him for his birthday. He hates how selfish he can be when it comes to Jaemin, but he just really loves him and wants to see him all the time. When he's about to sulk even more he hears a knock on his door. He lets out a soft 'come in' before looking towards the door to see a mop of faded red hair coming his way. When he looks at Renjun's face there's a small smile and his eyes have almost completely disappeared. He quickly makes his way to Jeno's bed and shoves Jeno over so he can make room for himself.