As most of you guys may know, I quit writing a few months ago. I quit because December was really hard for me, and Camila leaving did it for me. I didn't feel right writing about them if Camila wasn't in the group, but just because she isn't that doesn't mean I can't write about her in my stories/imagines. And some other stuff happened that only Maddy knows about and I'm still trying to get over it but it's been four months and it's just honestly gotten worse but ya know, ya dude will get through it. So with that being said, I am going to try my best to start writing again for you guys. I have a few drafts for my books.
And also;
This is gonna be kind of nerve wracking for me and I don't know exactly how to put it into words, but I've finally come to terms and realized that I am intergender. Meaning that, I go by both female and male pronouns.
If you guys could address me by Skylar from now on that would be really great. I've know for a while that I wasn't 100% a girl, and didn't want to 100% be a girl. When I was in middle, I had these two friends that would call me Jason, and thinking back on that, I now know why I told them to call me that, and why I liked when they did. But I've always preferred the name Skylar, Jason just came out of nowhere lol.
I shop in the guys section, I wear guys clothing, sometimes get mistaken for a guy with long hair and I kind of like it when I get mistaken for a guy. But I also like when people call me "she" idk, I identify as both. But mostly as a guy. I want a guys a body, I want a flat chest and other things. These past few months I've been wishing my chest was flat, or flatter and that I could wear whatever shirts I want without fearing that it's gonna be too tight and exposing. And wearing boxers feels so freeing to me, I started wearing them a little while ago and I've tried going back to panties because boxers are expensive but I just really don't feel comfortable at all in them anymore, and I've been saving up my money to buy more, I only wear them when it's that time of month.
And when I've started signing up for stuff, I've been putting Skylar as my name and whenever I get e-mails and stuff with that name it makes me feel so much better about myself and everything. I've always loved that name, and said that I would name my son or daughter that if I ever had one, but I wanted it for myself.
I'm only announcing this on wattpad because I don't know how my friends will react, and I don't know if I'm ready to tell them or my family just yet. My mom is very accepting and I know she will accept me because she's told me before that she would, but I'm just not ready yet.
So yeah, thank you for understanding, I love you all. ❤️
