Her Personal Secretary (Vol I) ✔️

Chapter Fifty One

A month of Ramadan had started and today was their fifth fast. Right now, Mahia was helplessly sitting on the chair in the hospital while looking at her father unmoving fingers laying on the bed in front of her whereas tears started coming out from her eyes. She kept crying while looking at him then she suddenly got up and ran out. She came out from the hospital and cleaned away her tears then sat down in the taxi to reached to her school. She went to her school but all day she was restless. She was restless and worried how her father was not waking up. She was not understanding when everything will be fine in her life. One problem go and second one was already waiting for her. She was too hopeless and helpless right now. It was blessed month of Ramdan and Devil was gone then why she was feeling so hopeless. From past five fasts she had not even ask Dua from Allah properly. All day went on like this and then she came home. She took a small nap then decided to made food to opened their fast. She had learned how to cook food and she was not best yet but she was fine in it now. She made the food when Adam came back. He greeted her and she fake smiled while showing she was fine to him. She don't wanted to made him get worry so she was pretending to be fine in front of him. It was Ramadan so after reading his Salah he took a nap as well and then they opened their Fast. They read their Maghib Salah when Adam came back from the mosque after reading the Salah and she set up the table for them to eat. Then they sat down and started eating. She was slowly eating but from inside she was not feeling at all to eat. Adam few times looked at her and she seemed lost. Another time Adam looked at her and she was thinking deep instead of eating when he called out to her

'Mahia.' Adam called out to her but she kept thinking

'Mahia...' Adam slightly shouted this time and she looked at him.

'Yeah.' Mahia said while looked at him.

'What happen? Are you alright?' Adam asked and she fake smiled then nodded her head in yes

'I am great.' Mahia answered while fake smiling when Adam sighed

'Mahia stop pretending you are fine in front of me. It really bother me that you are worried or something is troubling you and you are pretending to be okay in front of me.' Adam said and her smiled dropped and then she slowly and looked down. Adam sighed then moved and got hold of her hands but she kept looking down.

'What happen Mahia? Tell me. Share with me what is troubling you.' Adam said and then next second tears started flowing out from her eyes. She was looking down and while few tears fell down on Adam's hand from which he was holding on to her hands and he surprised looked at her.

'Mahi...what happen? Why you are crying?' Adam said while taking her nickname getting suddenly really worried then got hold of her face in his hand and made her looked up.

'Tell me what happen Mahia. I am getting worried now.' Adam asked and she shook her head in yes

'I don't know what is wrong with me? I really don't know Adam.' Mahia asked while crying when he moved and cleaned away her tears

'What do you mean? Explain to me.' Adam asked

'I am feeling so restless and hopeless Adam. I am scared that I am losing my Imam again. I am scared I am being hopeless.' Mahia said while again tears started coming out from her eyes and Adam was looking at her

'Keep going.' Adam encouraged her and she spoke up again.

'It took me so many years to come back to Allah and finally I am back I am being too hopeless again. I even had stopped asking Dua. Every time I pick up my hands to ask I don't what to say and I leave it. I ask what is point of Dua when Allah is not listening to me. I suffer after hearing about your death and when you was safe and fine, now my father went into comma. He is like a alive but dead at a same time. Why there are so many tests. Why I kept asking from Allah but he never give it to me. I am tired...annoyed...I don't know what to do.....' She stopped because heavy crying was making hard for her to spoke up whereas Adam was just carefully sitting listening to her.