The Blue Boy Next Door - CrankGamePlays x reader

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Y/N POV

I still can't believe I'm gonna be leaving in a few days! When I moved to LA with B/N, I though I would be here forever. But now that I'm going back to the UK, it just doesn't feel right. But I know I can't stay here. The reason I moved here in the first place was to get a fresh start away from the norm but all I got was a boring job and bad memories. However, I will always have the good memories. Before everything all went wrong. Back when life was simpler, before Ethan came into my life. I'm not going to say I regret meeting him because he was one of the best things that ever happened to me. He made me so happy. But just because he is one of the best things, doesn't mean he can't also be one of the worst things.

Before he moved in, I was single and didn't really have any problems to worry about. There's the good, but then there's the bad. Without him, I would still be single but I never would have fallen out with B/N. I would still be stuck in a rut but I would still have a job. I would still have a boring job but I wouldn't be moving away from my own flesh and blood. Everything seems to relate to Ethan somehow. I thought it would get better, that maybe I could explain what happened to him and he would eventually believe me and we could go back to how we were before. After all, that's what happens in the movies, right? That's just it. The movies aren't real. They aren't like reality. They portray everything to be perfect. They tell you that you'll fall in love at first sight and you'll be together forever and no matter what, you'll always make up. But that's not the case. In reality, hardly anything goes to plan. You'll think you've fallen in love and you will always love each other and then it all goes wrong and you don't understand why. As children, they never teach us that nothing is perfect so we grow up thinking everything will go to plan. But it won't. So I'm tired of pretending. This is a new chapter in my life, a new beginning and I can't wait to see what the future brings.

A/N: Hey guys! I know this chapter is very different to the past chapters I have written for this story but in this, I kind of wanted to not just speak as Y/N but as an author. Of course, some of the writing is only related to the story but there were also parts where it was me speaking. I wanted to get these points across without having to write a massive authors note and it seemed like this was the way to do it. The main points I was trying to show was that not everything in life goes to plan. There are lots of bumps along the way. And although they may throw you off the track, don't let them stop you from getting back on your feet and trying again. You're gonna encounter problems in life. It's inevitable. No matter how perfect your life is now, there will be times when it's not perfect. There will be the best times in your life where everything is going great and you'll think it will never end. But the chances are, it will. And those points could be the most important points in your life. But the thing you must always remember is, it will get better. No matter how bad things seem, there is always light on the horizon. It's just reaching that light that is the problem. But if you push through the pain and sadness, you will get there eventually. Take opportunities. Take it from someone who knows. I took one offer a while ago and now, it's giving me so many amazing opportunities. In the last few weeks, I have been offered about four chances just because of that one decision I made to say yes to a small project. Even though something may seem small, it can lead to massive things in the future but you'll never know if you don't say yes. Now, it may seem like I'm being harsh but I'm not. I'm being honest. There is no point in telling someone that everything is okay cause most likely it won't be. It's just sometimes, the truth hurts. But why tell someone a lie that could hurt them more than the truth? And with the ending, I really wanted to get across why I'm ending this story. Yes, the main reason is because I don't know where it's going and honestly, I'm not enjoying writing it as much as I used to. But another reason is that I want to move on. I want to see what the future will bring for me and I can't do that if I stick on one thing forever. It's time for me to move on. For me to take up bigger and better projects that I know will make me happy. I am currently writing the last chapter so expect that at some point in the next few weeks. Although, it may be a bit late since I have a lot of exams at the moment so yeah. See you guys later!! BYE MY BEELLLAASSS!!!! <3