A Dumb Transboy's Book of Poems

I Cared About You

Hello I'd say,
You'd say hello back,
Rant for a while,
Then leave it at that,
Message me to say,
Things are better this way,
Me far away,
And you finding a place.

You'd tell me how bad your life is,
And never ask about mine,
Because you're life is horrid,
And my life is fine,
My life is amazing,
Just to let you know,
Nowadays I only want to die when I'm alone,
It used to be different,
This I do know,
But it seems so selfish,
That'd you'd let my feelings go.

I will trek forward,
And help you on your way,
But would it really hurt you,
To ask about my day?
I will tell you good advice,
I will constantly make nice,
To the people that now hate me,
Or only thought about me twice.

And also fuck you,
Because I hate you all,
You know who you are,
And guess what I've dropped the ball,
I'm done helping you out,
You never take me seriously,
You only take me for granted,
Who am I supposed to be?

What is it you need?
A shoulder to cry on?
A bed to lie on?
A person to beat down and die on?
Yeah that's okay,
Why wouldn't it be?
Just step over me,
And take what you need,
Why else would we talk,
Why would we speak,
Unless you need something you leave me be.

And yeah you were there,
When things were bad,
But you made them worse,
Said you hated my dad,
And sure that's valid,
Make your own choice,
But saying the same thing about everyone else?

You absolute prick,
I'm tired and sick,
Of the hole you made me dig,
And throw myself in,
You saying this doesn't help,
Ask someone else,
You're not my problem,
And neither are they.

You see here friend,
Listen up it's the end,
Don't text me or call,
Here I'm ending it all,
I'm cutting all ties,
Telling the truth,
You never cared about me,
But damn I cared about you.