My Book of Randomness

Inner Thoughts

I really wanna talk to the authors of my favorite fanfictions

But then I might get annoying and they won't want to talk to me anymore

Then I'll just be silently crying like the bitch I am cause I'm no good at making friends

I'm surprised I even managed to get a boyfriend

But then we broke up

So now everything's all like 'okay, I'm all alone with my thoughts again for the rest of the summer'

Like, this season is the most depressing for me

I'm not allowed to hang out with anyone except for the people I go to therapy with

Even then I could only walk with them for a short while then I have to go home

I prefer going to school cause it has so many things that could distract me from my negative thinking

During the summer all I have is my music and the fanfictions I read

That stuff made me get through two years of agony but only barely

I'm really fucking scared right now

I don't know what's gonna happen and if my mind is still dark

I know I sound like a cringey, edgy teenager right now

But I am legitimately scared

Sorry for rambling. I just really needed to express my emotions

And I honestly didn't mean for this chapter to be so edgy

I originally wanted to fill it with jokes but I guess it changed

Thanks for letting me vent guys. I'll see you in the next one.